Caught in Love (NamJin) [ Edited ]

I Don't Deserve You.

It was now clear that they will never have a proper first date without being disturbed, ruined or cancelled. Jin was seated on the bench playing with his fingers, occasionally rubbing his sniffling nose.

Namjoon had moved a little further away and was on the phone with Ha Rin. Jin never once bothered to pay the taller any attention, his heart and mind where duelling between what he wants and what's best for Namjoon.

It had been about twenty minutes before Namjoon approached Jin and slowly plopped down. Neither of them uttering a word, Jin being too busy contemplating his life and Namjoon not knowing what to say.

It was getting a little dark, and Namjoon knew this was not the best place to camp out at night, so he took the liberty of tapping Jin's shoulder. The sudden gesture, startling the boy out of his thoughts.

"Jinnie... Baby, we should leave, it's getting late. Your family will be worried." Jin nodded slowly and got up walking away. Namjoon just stood there, he knew things will never be the same now. He hated it, but he couldn't do anything now. He had already messed up. He didn't even have the right words to comfort Jin with, screw that, he could barely look Jin in the eye without wanting to kill himself. He was so happy and relieved that Jin was so forgiving... But, now what? Jin would feel side-lined, and knowing Jin he would think everything unwanted. His heart was not in a good place right now, and his mind was too distorted, this situation was killing him. He just wanted to be with Jin, but now... That might not be assured.

Namjoon was about to cry, he just wanted this to stop. If this was a fucking dream, he wanted to wake the fuck up. If this was a prank, it was beyond sick. If this was karma, life is a Motherfucking bitch!

He stood there for a minute to regain himself. He just needed to go home and clear his mind. He then made his way to the parking area, where he saw Jin staring at the sky with his back rested against the car door. What the heck did Jin do to deserve this? Why was he torturing him like this? Why was he such an asshole? Why did he even go to that party? Why did he ever let this happen to his baby?

Just why?

"B-Baby... I'm sorry." That's all Namjoon could mumble. Who was he kidding, No amount of sorry's or apologies would change or clear this.

Jin turned to Namjoon, and Namjoon's eyes widened. Jin cupped his face and kissed him, even after everything...

Jin still kissed him.

Really short chapter ,..im really sorry you guys.

I promise the next one will be big.

Gotta go study now.

[EDITED: 25.04.2020]

P.S – Editing Joanna is wondering why Seventeen-year-old Joanna wanted to torture Jin as well as herself by writing this, why are there so many hurdles for NamJin to cross to finally be happy?