Caught in Love (NamJin) [ Edited ]

Confession

To be honest, Jin never thought he'd ever hear those words. His heart was really giving him a hard time.

Namjoon sighed when he didn't get a response.

He knew he had gone too far this time; he knew now Jin hated him the most. It shattered his heart completely. Knowing the one you love feels completely opposite for you, is honestly not the best feeling in the world. He knew he was being utterly selfish. How could he not though, He's been crushing on the boy for like two years now. He was beyond scared of confessing his feeling, being rejected and ending up broken-hearted mainly thought.

He just wanted to hold Jin in his arms, tell him how much he loves him, protect him, make love to him, stand beside him, live for him. Everything. But now, that was all out the window. He went overboard.

He could see how happy Jin was with the guy, it was awfully painful. He broke a little on the inside while he watched every second of it happen.

Knowing that someone else could do that to Jin, hit home hard, and he couldn't take the agony.

Namjoon took a deep breath.

"Okay, I think it's about time I got this off my chest. I don't want you to say anything just listen, Please?"

Jin froze, he had no idea what was happening right now.

Was he going to die? Is it the end of the world? Was Namjoon, going to die? Why was he being so vulnerable?

"I-I...I like you Jin, I have since the opening ceremony during our first year. I wish I didn't though, but your smile was the first thing that warmed my heart in a long time. The first time I saw you on stage and you greeted everyone, I swear you stole my heart. You have to freaking take responsibility. And not just that, you're sweet, kind, caring, you basically are a mother to everyone around you. You never think of yourself! You remember that time last year, we were at the educational camp in Busan, Jungkook got sick and you say up the whole night taking care of him even though you were so tired, because we had gone mountain trekking. But no, you still stayed up. I saw all of it." He took a breather (well actually he didn't realise he did, he was heart-to-mouth vomiting by this point). "Even a few months back when that jumpy kid got in a fight, and his boyfriend wasn't there to help him, you did. You managed to stop the fight even though you ended up with that scar on your arm."

Jin was out.

So very out, lost in space, out. He didn't even know if he heard every word Namjoon said, he was so lost and confused right now.

Shocked would be an understatement.

Here he is being confessed to by his bully.

Namjoon looked so sincere. Jin definitely felt his heart pang again and again, he was so afraid Namjoon would hear it. Namjoon's confession eating away at his heart.

Namjoon had stopped when he noticed Jin was stiff as an icicle, getting a little pale too.

He knew it was a stupid thing to even try. Well he already said so much, might as well continue. He had convinced himself that this was for his own sake. He needed to be free from this love chain.

"I like how you bite your lip when you're worried. How you always manage to say the right thing at the right time. " Now his voice was about to crack as he held back the tears. "I knew we wouldn't work. You hated me, well honestly, the only way I could get your attention was through bullying you. I hated every time you would end up nearly tearing up, it would break me inside. But you- You were so far away from me" He sniffed now, allowing a tear to fall.

"Y-You, everyone looked at you. I hated that, I wanted to be the only one to see you. But who, was I kidding? I didn't even have a chance- I know sorry would not be able to cut it for anything up until till now, a million wouldn't, but this is the last time, I assure you. I won't disturb you anymore. I promise. Just- I'm sorry to ask for this too, but can I just kiss you once, Please? And then I'll be gone forever, out of your sight " Namjoon ended as he wiped away the tears in his eyes so he could look at Jin properly, instead of seeing a blurry figure.

Jin had melted, if only he had known. Jin felt terrible.

"I'm so sorry Namjoon, I had-" He was cut off by Namjoon.

"P-Please- Please Hyung don't say sorry. I didn't confess to get an apology." Namjoon cranked out softly as he had placed his hand gently over Jin's mouth.

"You know what? I'm sorry I asked. Just leave it, okay? Forget I confessed and asked for a kiss. I shouldn't have done that, you're probably awkward as hell right now. I'll just leave." Namjoon said as he turned around to start walking.

On impulse Jin reached out a spun Namjoon around. The action causing Namjoon to trip on his own feet and crash his lips onto Jin's.

Jin didn't know what happened, his heart was out his chest right now. His mind was spinning. Blood was flowing to his face and it was like his body moved on its own.

He stared into Namjoon's shocked eyes.

Were they always so beautiful and deep?

They looked as if they held a sad story. Jin wondered what it was, Hurt? Pain? Whatever it was, he just wanted to erase Joon's eyes of such... Sadness?

The kiss made him feel warm in his tummy, not like the one with Ken, this one was better in a way he couldn't describe.

Namjoon's lips were so soft, it made him want to lean in more, for some reason.

They looked into each other's eyes.

And then reality hit them both like a train.

In one quick jerk, Jin was shoved away and Namjoon was out the door with his hands on his mouth.

Jin wanted to chase after him, but his body just wouldn't move.

Why was his body frozen?

When he had finally gathered his mind and strength, he ran out the kitchen.

He scanned the crowd, hoping to see Namjoon anywhere.

He spotted Jimin, and ran up to him. He asked if Namjoon came to him, no was the intoxicated response and the boy went back to dancing.

Jin looked all over and found nothing. He lost all hope as he plopped himself down on the grass, plucking at it, out of frustration.

He then raised his finger to his lips.

That kiss was beautiful, he thought. Never in his wildest dreams did he think this was how things would turn out between him and Namjoon. He smiled to himself unknowingly, as he recalled how Namjoon confessed.

Wait, is he happy about this? Did he like it? How did he feel? What did this mean? What about Ken?

Jin brushed the last question out, the guy had left, there is no more Ken. But the question was

What would he do now? And where the hell is Namjoon?

Sighing Jin laid down on the grass, he could deal with his tomorrow. He needed to calm down first.

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[EDITED: 15.04.2020]

P.S – Editing Joanna is sorry for 17-year-old Joanna's lingo. She was very young, dumb, and Hella stupid back then (another P.S- she hasn't changed. A disgrace to evolution, really).