My time is almost up

Im finally happy

I can finally say that I'm happy. I've stopped cutting, I haven't self harmed in a year, and I can say that I'm in love. So that is the last two things on my bucket list ticked off. I never realised how great life could be if you let it, if you let all the bad out and the good in and don't lock yourself in your room every day and night, oh and actually wake up before 3 in the afternoon. I'm truly happy, I have an amazing boyfriend, an amazing mum and the best friends anybody could wish for. The only thing that makes my life bad is the fact that it is supposed to end my the end of this month, it became easier to forget about that at times, but it also became harder to do things, I started getting really out of breath even if I just stood up, I started getting really tired and I started visiting the hospital more frequently, it was hard, but I never expected it to be easy, there was this pain constantly in my chest knowing that I'd have to leave my mum with nobody, she lost her parents, her husband and now she was losing her child. I felt so terrible so I spent every moment possible with my mum. She was so great and strong but I could see with every word and look she did she was hurting and she was scared, I was scared too. What if she couldn't handle being alone? What if it drove her insane? What if it got so bad she toke her own life? These questions were constantly on my mind, I didn't want to leave now, everything was going so great.