Hate That I Love You (Book3) COMPLETED

•HATE THAT I LOVE YOU 14•

"Shawn! That's the thing you don't understand! What you are doing isn't safe! I get it's your job but you took it too far!"

"I don't get what's the big deal, fuck," Shawn groaned tired of hearing his wife complain.

"YOU MISSED YOUR DAMN DAUGHTER'S AWARD CEREMONY! YOU KNOW WHAT SHE DID!? SHE CRIED AND ASKED IF HER DAD EVEN LOVED HER!" Beyoncé yelled at her husband tired of his issues.

"I was busy. Who the fuck you think pay for those dance classes? Huh? Them lights in this damn house? The food? That nice little dress yo ass got on?! ME!"

"You real fucking shady! I pay for shit too! I have a job! I don't sit on my ass all day!" Beyoncé yelled stepping up to her husband.

"You might as well should. All you do is bitch, complain and say the kids lonely! If they so lonely then do something! You can suck a dick for all I care right now! You just yelling for no fucking reason! You got me real fucking tired," Shawn yelled back.

"Me? Suck a dick? Fuck you! I fucking hate you! I wish I would have never married you! I told you! You had one more fuck up before I left your ass!"

"What you gon do huh? Leave? You'll just crawl back to me," Shawn smirked in anger.

"Fuck you, Shawn! You are a damn pussy!"

"Me?" Shawn stepped towards his wife and pushed her forcefully onto the wall, "Fuck you. Now get out my sight before I do something I regret."

"What you gon do?! Hit me!? Wouldn't surprise me!" Beyoncé yelled pointing in Shawn's face.

He grabbed her arm with all his strength and pinned it onto the wall, "What you not about to do is-"

"Owe! Shawn!" Beyoncé cried in pain trying to get away from her husband. She pushed him off of her and ran into the closet. She took the suitcase that was under the drawers and began stuffing it with clothes and quickly closing it.

She took it along with her purse and ran down the hall. She opened Blue's room first, "Baby, wake up," Beyoncé shook her daughter.

"Mommy..?"

"Sshh. Come on get up."

Beyoncé quickly packed Blue's bag and gave Blue her stuffed bunny. "Take your bag and go downstairs, wait for me."

"But mommy-"

"Don't ask questions. Be quiet when you do it." Beyoncé said as she cried.

She then went to Ansel's room and carried him after getting his bag with clothes and a few toys ready. She walked downstairs slowly trying to be quiet.

She buckled her kids in the car and was about to drive off, "Mommy, we can't go."

"What?"

"I left my necklace! I can't leave it!" Blue cried.

"What? Which one?"

"The one daddy gave me for my birthday."

"Sshhh. Okay stop crying. I'll go get it."

Beyoncé got out of the car and ran back upstairs. She went into Blue's room and got the necklace. When she turned around she jumped back in fear seeing her husband in front of her wife teary eyes.

"Where are my kids?"

"I'm taking them with me," Beyoncé said confidently as she tried to control her breathing.

"You can't do that! They are my kids too!"

"Well I'm leaving and I sure as hell ain't leaving them with a psychopath like you!" Beyoncé yelled. She walked past Shawn and began going downstairs as Shawn laughed.

"You'll regret this, Beyoncé!"

"Don't come looking for us! We are better off without you," Beyoncé said going back towards the car.

As she drove off she looked back at her husband at the doorway. He blew his last chance.. now his family is gone..

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Shawn cried like a little bitch as he laid his forehead on the car wheel. He wiped his eyes and got out the car.

He slowly got out of the car and walked towards his desk. "Wassup Shawn! You saw the game yesterday- what's wrong man?" Javier asked.

"I fucked up man. Real big time."

"What do you mean?" Javi asked.

"I put my hands on Beyoncé," Shawn said barely above a whisper.

"YOU WHAT? Are you insane!?"

"I don't know what came over me! I just shut down. We were arguing and I was pushed to my limit, I pushed her onto the wall and held her."

"Damn. Did you talk to her?"

"She left me. Took the kids," Shawn looked up at his friend with tears on his eyes.

Javier knew Shawn never cried so he was really broken. "Shawn you can't work right now. You have to go talk to the captain," Javier said seriously.

"I don't know what to do! I lost everything. Fuck. I have nothing left. She won't answer my calls, I don't know where she is. If my kids are good, if they are safe, if she left me for good or if she wants a divo- a divor-"

"Come on man. Don't do that," Javi said pulling him towards the break room.

"I forgot about my daughter and shit. I yelled at my wife, put my hands on her. Yelled at my son for no reason. I don't know what to do!"

"Man. I wish I could help you but I have never gone through something of the sort. I'm sorry," Javi said slowly.

"Nah it's cool. I just, I need to apologize, but I don't even know where she went."

"Ask her friends."

"Even if I did, and they told me, she wouldn't want to meet up with me. When she was pregnant with Blue, she got raped and that really messed up her head for some time. It was really hard trying to get Bey to understand I wasn't going to hurt her. Now that I really did she won't ever want to see me again," Shawn cried.

"Now, you know that's not true, she loves you!"

"She said she hated me and never wanted to see me again," Shawn said slowly.

"It was probably in the eat of the moment."

"No. The thing is that I can see how she feels when I look at her eyes, when I look into them I didn't see anger, I saw pure hate and even a tad of fear," Shawn said sadly.

"Why do I feel like there's more than what you are telling me?" Javier asked.

"After she left I went into the bathroom to wash my face and try to relax but I saw this on the counter," Shawn said shakily as he placed something on the counter.

Javier looked over and gasped seeing a positive pregnancy test. "There were four other one that said the same thing. I really fucked up."