Keep Me Sane

My lies are your truth.

"Liar, liar, pants on fire."
-Sing me sweet rhythmic tunes.

I got so used to believing every single thing you said. I never doubted you for a second. That's when I believed that there was no reason for you to lie. There wasn't any reason, but you did it anyways. You wanted to test if your words were worth believing because you didn't believe in yourself. Just tell me why. Just tell me why. Why did you lie to me?
-Catch yourself in the lie

Lying was always my way of getting out of trouble. Lying was always my way of being safe
because I'm afraid to face consequences.
-I am a coward.

When I tell you to go away, when I push you away, is when I need you the most. So please just fucking stay. I said don't worry, but please don't stop your worries. Please look at me, I'm right here. Please see behind these lies I'm trying to hide behind. Don't believe me: I am not okay, I am not okay.
-Mask of lies.

"I just need some time," I always say, but "Leave me
already," is what I mean to say, or maybe I don't understand what I mean anymore.
-Speaking lies

I could never really speak words that were true. I can only lie to you with a hint of truth twisted behind my wicked promises and hallowed out words. Don't listen to the words I speak, listen to every dip and rise of my tone, look beyond every meaning for there is something lurking within the empty spaces between the words I utter.
-Expectations that you might never reach.

I was this close to letting you in, but then you stopped caring. Maybe it's just me who thinks that, but it's much better to pretend you never cared than to be hurt because you cared. It's easier to delude myself into thinking that nothing ever mattered. I just want to move on without you meaning anything to me; sadly that was just a lie. I'm so sorry that I'm like this.
-Just play pretend with me.

When I look at that smirk crossing your lips, or the eyes that narrow when you speak to me. How are you supposed to make me believe?
-I can't tell the difference anymore

Did you know that I once told you something of great importance, without ever even feeling it? Did you know I said what I had to, only to make you feel better? Did you know that when I said I'd never lie to you, I was already lying? Did you know that I already knew how it would end before it even ended? Did you know that I was going to keep you the farthest from me that I could? Did you know that I was planning on breaking you in order to save myself? Did you really know everything, but stayed with me until you got tired because you loved me? Did you believe me when I said you couldn't help me?
-Tell me: What did you know about me?

When you've been lying to yourself so long how do you know what's real? When you no longer can trust yourself you don't know who to believe in.
-In the lies we trust