Laborious Devotion (Kellic)

Chapter four

I got to Kellins and didn't bother knocking and went upstairs to his room. I opened the door to his bedroom to see him sitting there cross legged with his glasses on and his laptop on his lap. He looked up at me and got up quickly.

"Vic what the hell? Where have you been? Where did you go I was so worried about you! You didn't answer any of my texts o-or calls I thought.. I thought something happened to you! You asshole!" He hit me in the chest, I figured I'd let him get his anger out.
"You can't just not answer me Vic I was worried sick considering the shit you get into!" He took a breath after yelling for a minute straight.
"Are you done?" I asked. He nodded and I pulled him into a hug.

"I'm sorry." I mumbled into his shoulder. He sighed.
"No, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said what I did yesterday. It was mean." He whispered.

"It's okay. You're probably right about all of it."
We stood there holding each other for awhile, which felt good.

"Vic?"
"Hm?"
"Why do you have hickeys on your neck?" Kellin pointed out. I pulled away and went to stand in front of his bedroom mirror. I gasped as I saw my reflection for the first time in awhile. My cheeks have caved in a small amount, making it look like my face is hallow. I have bags under my eyes and my eyes are bloodshot. My hair is a mess and I have purple hickeys all on my neck. My lips are pale and I look like I haven't slept in days, which i haven't really.

"Vic..?" Kellin says softly. I couldn't help it. I closed my eyes and let tears slip down my cheeks. I could feel my chest tightening and it felt like my body was falling apart.

"Vic, come here it's okay." Kellin pulled me into him and held me tight as I began to break down.
"No it's not okay look at me! I look horrible. I am horrible. I had sex with a random guy last night and I... i did so many bad things and i look disgusting." I sobbed into Kellin. He put his hand on the back of my head and held me to him. He was basically the only thing holding my together. He noticed my arm too, which sent him into full mom mode.

"Vic you did it again? You said you would stop!" He yelled.
"Yeah I did stop but shit happens."
"Don't pull that stupid 'shit happens' thing on me. Stop destroying yourself!" I could tell he was really emotional. I couldn't bring myself to apologize, because I wasn't sorry. I just, don't care anymore. I don't care about anything. He sighed and made me lay on his bed, and he laid next to me. He pulled me to him and held me. It felt weird for him to do that because he usually doesn't. We laid there for what seems like hours even though it was only about 20 minutes.

"I'm so tired." I mumbled.
"You can sleep here. I would rather have you sleep here than anywhere else." I closed my eyes and listened to Kellins breathing as I fell asleep.

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I woke up and felt the familiar feel of Kellins thick comforter hugged around my body. I laid there with my eyes closed for a few minutes before I pried them open. Kellin was sitting at his desk doing homework I assumed. He tapped his eraser of his pencil softly against the table as he spun short turns back and forth. He had a cup from Starbucks sitting next to him that he occasionally took sips from. After a few minutes he turned around to grab something out of his bag and noticed that I was awake. He sent a little smile towards me and stood up. His chair creaked as he got up and walked over towards me. He came over and sat next to me on the bed.

"How are you feeling?" He asked. I shrugged. "I'm okay." He nodded in response. He sat there looking at the floor and I could tell from his face he was contemplating something.

"What?" I questioned. He looked up at me.

"So like... What happened? I mean as in how did that," He motioned to my neck, "Happen?"