Saving Zeisha - Completed √

Chapter 08

"She loved him and he loved her but it wasn't that simple"

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WARNING: The following chapter may contain elements that might not be  suitable for some readers, viewer discretion is advised.

- Zeisha

I was in a place full of peace. As if I was floating on a cloud in heaven. Not a sound in sight as it was completely dark yet full of light. It felt amazing just to live in the moment. As if all my problems just disappeared by the snap of a finger. Well too bad it couldn't last any longer because I was awoken from my slumber by an annoying sound. Its not my Mom. She doesn't disturb me on sunday mornings and I always stay in my room after waking up. I don't like having breakfast so she doesn't call me for it. She usually leaves lunch on the kitchen counter and heads off for work. So it's definitely not Mom.

I heard the sounds of birds chirping outside my window, as if they were trying to wake me up. But my eyelids still felt heavy. I needed more sleep as it relaxed my mind from the thoughts of what could possibly happen in the future.I needed more sleep before the dreadful day called Monday came. Which was tomorrow. Suddenly the annoying sound returned, but this time, since I was clearly awake and aware of my surroundings, I noticed that the sound was actually my phone ringing.

I groaned as I lifted the pillow off of my face and turned around to see my phone vibrating on the counter next to me. With only one eye open and the other one closed, I grabbed my phone to check and see who on earth was calling me at a time like this. I checked the caller ID which read Unknown and debated on whether I should answer it or not. Getting curious I took the call.

" Hello. Who's this?" I asked to the person on the other side of the call.

" Hello Zeisha." A squeaky but firm sissy voice replied.

"How do you know my name? Who's this?" I asked again anxiously. I am not good with talking on phone. I prefer messages.

" I'm Taylor. I'm Noah's lover." The girl said fluently making my heart break. Noah is with someone ? Then why Did he said that he liked me? Was he playing me?

" I want you to stay away from Noah. He's mine. He only loves me." She continued as I didn't spoke.

" W-hat are you talking about? Noah never mentioned you. You are Lying." I said trying to sound firm but my voice cracking slightly.

" No sweety! It's not a lie. He was just playing with you. He likes playing with weaklings like you. He only loves me. I just wanted to warn you of his tactics" She said sounding vicious. NO. Noah is not like this. He truly cares for me. I thought. My mind not ready to believe taylor's words.

" Look Taylor, stop bothering me. I won't believe you. I trust Noah and he cares for me. Call someone else. I'm tired." I replied getting bored with her lies.

" Bitch you don't know him like I do. If you don't believe me I can send you pictures of me with Noah. It'll show you he only loves me" She said making me stagger.

" W-hat? You have pictures? I asked frantically. Is Noah really with her?

" Yes. I'll send you the pictures now." She responded and ended the call.

I grew anxious as I waited for her message. A headache was brewing up with all this drama. My phone buzzed in my hand after some time. I debated with myself that whether I should check it or not. You should. It's the proof whether Noah lied to you or not. My inner voice reasoned.

I nervously opened the message and what I saw made my heart dropped and chest tightened. There were several pictures of Noah and Taylor together holding hands, kissing and one was from prom night they attended together. The phone dropped from hand as I started shaking crazily. NO! This can't be true. How could Noah do this to me? I trusted him and he broke my heart. I heard my phone ringing but I didn't paid attention to it. This hurts so much.

I had started falling in love with him. I used to believe true love existed. But getting your heartbroken once and now twice, I was falling apart. I tried to hold it in, but I cried my eyes out. Who do you turn to when the only person in the world that can stop you from crying, is exactly the one making you cry. The demons resided inside me started emerging. You are useless. Everyone will leave you. No one likes you. Noah Hates you.Who would even care if you weren't around? You don't matter to anyone.Nobody's ever going to love you. Even your father left you.You're alone, you'll die alone. You'll always be alone. The only thing you can do is go and kill yourself. KILL YOURSELF.

My body moved forward, acting on its own like it was possessed by the demons speaking inside me. I couldn't control myself and why should I? I would die and all my problems would vanish and no one couldn't hurt me. I would be free of this world.

I moved towards my bathroom and got inside without locking the door. I searched through my cabinets frantically and found a razor. I slowly started to cut my wrist and when the blade pierced slightly into my skin, pain kicked in sending shivers across my body. But my thoughts overpowering the pain. I'm a bad person. I'm a burden to my family and friends. I'm hurting them with this bipolar, this annoying nuisance of a girl.That's the way I thought. That's the way my demons thought. I used to block my demons before but now they have won. I again pierced the blade in my wrist but this time roughly. I just wanted to end myself. I was starting feeling dizzy but felt no pain.

I moved the blade deep this time and whole lot of blood leaked out. Tears falling out my eyes , my body begging me to stop. But I couldn't. I m going to die now. My body was feeling wobbly and I lost my foothold and my head crashed on the water faucet and I fell down on the bathroom floor. The last I saw was my blood pool around me as darkness welcomed me straightaway.

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~ Note : This chapter is about what made Zeisha cut herself. If you liked this chapter, make sure to vote and comment below.