GAZE- Jarchie

9- See you there

Saturday 11:47am

Everything that happened last night has been on my mind since the second I woke up. I may of been drunk but I still remember everything that happened with Jug. He tried to kiss me and as wrong as it was, it also felt so right. I don't quite know how to feel. I don't know what's wrong with me at the moment. Why did he lean in? He has a girlfriend yet he still did it. So many questions were in my head and I have no idea how to act around him now. What if this messes up our 'friendship' to the point we don't talk anymore? We haven't talked since last night. After we saw Jodie we quickly exchanged phone numbers and he left.

Jodie was sitting on the sofa with Kevin talking about how she left her boyfriend while he plays with her hair trying to comfort her. I sat opposite them with my phone in my hand. It was hard for me to concentrate on anything that Jodie was saying because the only thing I could think about was Jug. Fuck what is this boy doing to me?

"He becomes a completely different person when he's with his dad" Jodie says taking about her boyfriend as she holds her cup of tea. While she talks I click on Jugs contact name and begin to type 'Hey thanks for yesterday what are your plans for today? Still up for something?' I don't send it I just keep reading it through because I have no idea what to fucking say. "It's like, he looks up to his dad so much" Jodie continues. "Mhm" Kevin responds between her sentences. "Like he lights up whenever his dad enters a room" Kevin nods as she talks while making a plait in her hair. After reading through the message I was about to send to Jug at least 10 times, I delete and retype it realising how desperate I sound. 'Hey thanks for yesterday what are your plans for today?' I type again. "We were barely together in London and I just couldn't deal with that" I hear Jodie say between my thoughts. Fuck do I send it? Trying not to hesitate I press the send button and quickly switch my phone off because I'm too scared to see his reply. I instantly regret sending it. Ugh what if he thinks I'm desperate? What if us almost kissing me was just him being drunk and meant nothing? I'm thinking way too much about this.

I try to concentrate on their conversation after I send the message. "If he loves you he would choose you" Kevin says. Jodie nods in agreement. "We've obviously got to find a solution, because if Jodie is going to live back here now, then we're 3 people living in a small apartment" I suddenly say trying to join their chat. Before Jodie went to London she did have the spare room since this is a three room apartment but me and Kevin didn't think she would be back for a while so we changed her room into a gaming room as it's downstairs so technically she doesn't have a bedroom. "Are you being serious?" Kevin asks lifting his eyebrows slightly raising his voice. I shuffle my eyebrows in confusion. "Jodie's here, only just got home after being dumped by the man of her dreams and all you care about is if she will have a fucking bedroom?!" Kevin says in shock. "I wasn't dumped..." Jodie starts. "No you weren't dumped but..." Kevin interrupts. "I was the one who left him. We're only on a break" she explains as Kevin nods. "If he really loves me then he will come after me" she says sighing.

As they continue talking my phone makes a text sound. Fuck it's Jug. I unlock my phone as fast as I can and look at his message. 'Yeah, thanks for last night, I hope everything is okay with Jodie. I had forgotten I have already made plans with Betty. Sorry. See you in school' I sigh and roll my eyes. I'm guessing he was just drunk last night then and didn't think anything of it. He's clearly too busy with Betty ugh I don't care. "It's good to be home thanks for the tea" Jodie says with a small smile. "It's okay. I'm glad you're home" Kevin replies hugging her.

Monday 10:42am

I didn't speak to Jug for the whole weekend but he hasn't left my mind. Why can't I just not care? He's clearly happier with Betty.

I walk over to my locker and see a orange note which is on all the other locker doors. 'Josie's Halloween party next Friday' it read. I scrunch it up and throw it in the bin next to my locker. I can't be bothered for anymore parties.

I try open my locker door but it won't budge. I swear to god this fucking locker is so shit why won't it open? I keep pulling it but it won't unlock. I put my keys in trying to unlock it again. It still doesn't move. I loudly groan and sigh. I try hitting it with my knuckle but sill nothing.

"Hey" I look up fuck it's Jug. Ugh just try be normal. "Hi" I say with a fake smile. A smirk spreads across his face as he stares at me. "Are you going to the Halloween party or what?" He asks. "Uh, no. Or maybe? I don't know... are you?" I question. "Yeah. Join me" He says. It was more of a demand than a question that I don't think about twice. "Okay, yeah" I say nodding. "See you there" he says walking away as he hits my locker door with his knuckle making it swing open. I raise my eyebrows in shock at his strength.

As Jug leaves I turn to the side and see Reg getting stuff out his locking. He nods at me. "Hey" I greet. We both awkwardly get stuff from our lockers and don't say anything. I realise I haven't hung out with Reg or the others for ages. We used to hang out every weekend but it's seems ages since we last did something which is probably the reason for the awkwardness.

"Did you do anything fun this weekend?" He asks starting a conversation. "Nah" I lie as I shut my crap locker. "I tried calling you on Friday, though" he starts. "Yeah I saw. But...a lot happened over the weekend you know. Jodie came home. Did you hear?" I ask. "Yeah. I also heard you hosted a party?" he replies. Well shit. "Well, yeah. I did. Well, not really it was kind of...I was kind of forced to host one by Josie. She's so hung up on that atmosphere group thing you know? And then she spoke with Kevin and stuff so in the end I didn't have much of a choice. But it wasn't as though I hosted it. It was pretty boring" I blabber on. "Yeah?" He asks. "Yeah, you didn't miss out on anything" I reply. "Yeah...it's Moose's birthday next weekend, though" he says reminding me. "No way" shit I forgot about that. "Yeah. So...Chuck and I thought we'd do something cool for him" he suggests. "Yeah. I'm in! We can make sure he gets laid for the first time" I say smiling. "For the first time, yeah" he says laughing. I'm glad we can easily sort things without there being too much tension. "It will be hilarious. We'll have to call one of those dancing chicks or Josie" I say. "Then he gets to live out those sado dreams of his" he replies making me laugh. We both walk to our lesson and talk normally like we used to do.