Celebrating Snowflake, A Miscarriage Story

finding out i was expecting baby #2, then losing her...

I was eight months post partum, when I knew I was prego. We were not trying for another and there was definitely mixed feeling from everyone in the family. I was excited but not wanting to have to have another cesarean, and the only reason I had one with my first was because my lil guy was breech.

I found out two weeks before Christmas that we were having snowflake, and decided to have a cute anouncment giving on to each others parents. It was our family pic from thanksgiving with a comment saying "from three to four, Sept 2016"

When we gave this to my husband's family they were unfortunately not so excited, but did say congrats at least. But when it came to my mom and sis, they both were very negative, and angry at us for getting prego so soon after my first.

This was very discouraging for me, and we left very soon, with my heart so sad and my mind confused. My mom wasnt the most supportive when i was prego with my first, but sure didnt except her to be so negative.

For the next two weeks i was stressed and depressed that i was not feeling the support i felt i needed from my family. But we still tried to be excited for another addition to our lil family, we came up with the nickname of snow pea, which was continuing our pea theme....we had no idea that soon this would change.

Then came the morning that i woke up knowing there was something very wrong, i felt my body telling me there was something happening and not for the best. I call it "black goo" and it was in my uterus spreading all over my tummy. Then only hours later the blood and pain started, light at first. But them it came in over whelming amounts. My husband took me to the hospital because i was bleeding ao kuch and the pain was too much to handle.

After the ultrasound they told me i lost the baby, i received a lot of pain medication while staying for 2 days at the hospital, we were released on new years day.

I decided that after finding out we lost our sweet baby, i wanted to change our sweeties nickname from snowpea to snowflake...because she was here and gone to soon....

There was still a lot of physical pain for quite a while, the dr thought that i probably had a major cyst popped, and that is what caused the miscarriage....so my pcos took my baby away.