Original Poems

Drowning on the inside.

Standin' on the outside, lookin' in

Somehow cold and alone, as I've always been.

I'm shouting for help but no one hears,

So I wear a mask to hide all my pain and fears.

I spend every day,

Being pushed away.

I see people drown around me,

Destroying themselves as I whisper my plea.

Each friend that I've made,

Somehow seems to change and to fade.

I don't know who they are,

So have I taken things too far?

That's why I'm standing on the outside, lookin' in,

Hiding how broken I've really been.

No one can know or see,

Just how hurt and afraid this person can be.

My heart is hurt and my soul is torn,

So in the shadows I die as a new me is born,

Still cold and alone with fear so plain,

But masked with a smile to hide my pain.

I can never have that life so beautiful,

For my heart is my guide, and my mind is my tool,

But they're never at peace as whispers invade,

Causing me to shrink and shrivel back into the cold grey shade.

So I'm sitting here drowning and seeking a gentle hand,

But everyone else is all on dry land.

No one can hear me,

No one can see,

And there is no boat on the far away shore.

There is no plank to use as my oar,

There is no raft to keep me safe.

The sharks are circling as I feel their fins chafe,

I know what's coming as I stand all alone.

I hear the happy shouts and the proud cheers, as I close my eyes and know I'm prone.

The first bites come, and tear me apart.

But from the inside out, as my demons slowly eat my heart.