The Battle Roars. The Scars Multiply. The Pain Never Ends.

I Try

Why can't I be good enough?
I try to always be there,
I try to always stay tough.
But I never seem to be enough.

I'm sorry I can't be everywhere.
I can only be so much.
I try to spread myself out fair,
But it's not enough, I swear.

I try to stay in touch,
I try so hard to show my love,
I know I seem to be,
The opposite of a crutch.

Oh I am so very sick of,
Sick of my lousy self.
But I can't seem to shove,
Shove that I'm no white dove.

You should take care of yourself,
It does not matter about me.
I am only a lonely shelf.
Only a worthless shelf.

Oh please I can only plea,
Please try to see it from my view.
Please just try to see.
Maybe...I should just flee.

Oh if only you knew,
How much it tears me up.
Oh if only you knew,
I can't be good enough for you.

I try my best to make it up,
I try my best to do what I can.
But maybe I just need to back up.
Maybe there's just a runner-up.

I realized, once it began,
That I will never be...
Maybe I should've ran,
I guess that would work than.

I try so hard to be me.
I try so hard to be there.
I try so hard for you to see.
Oh take my apology.

Why can't I end it all?
I seem to be replaced.
I seem to be your downfall.
I seem to be a shortfall.

I'm being displaced,
Or that's how it seems.
I am laying waste,
I am being debased.

My tears come in streams,
I can't do this much longer.
I no longer have any dreams.
I can't be much stronger.
Why must this go on?
What have I done?
There doesn't seem to be a dawn.
I am on the run.
I don't know who I am,
I am wandering, lost.
Can't you see I give a damn?
My love doesn't come at a cost.
I will always love you,
That will never change.
Do you see that is so?
I feel estranged.
I can't do this much longer.

I try.
But it's not good enough.
It never will be.
And I'm sorry.
I try.
I try.