Survive Tomorrow

Don't Hurt Me

Łucja's POV

   I've met a girl with hazel eyes who makes my heart beat every time she speaks, who makes me smile every time she smiles but she lies... She lies about where she is going every mornings , she lies that she is okay, she lies that there is nothing wrong. She lies.

   And I can stand it thinking she can be now with someone else who holds the way i do and makes her happy but I won't ask no, I won't ask. It will break my heart if I know the truth but I just sometimes wonder why she can't tell me where she is going and why is her hair falling and why she feels so weak... And I can't understand it, I don't think I ever will. But I leave that to her, she will tell me one day... If she loves me enough to do so. I just don't want to get hurt because she is the love of my life and I will do anything for her, I don't want to lose her... But if she's happier with someone else I will let her go, though it will break me, but she is always put above me and always will be, no matter what.

Callie's POV

    I know that Lucja is hurt by how i dissapear every morning but I have to go to the hospital and get my chemo, I am getting so much weaker and only ever Kyle can help me up. I don't think she understand but I know she is hurt and I can't stand her hurt anymore, but I can't tell her either. It is getting harder and harder for me to surive till tomorrow, but I know i have to keep going for her, for me, for my family and fans. I know I have to be strong and I will be, I will try to be. I wish I could ask her for her support but I know she will leave me if she knows that I have cancer and I can't hurt her in that way. Maybe if I distant myself it won't hurt her that much? I have 6 months left to live and I wanna live them to the fullest with the love of my life but I don't know if I can handle the pain in her sparkling eyes every time I tell her I have to go out... I don't know if I can handle myself lying to her again that everything is okay and that I am fine, when the illness is eating me and I can't do anything about it. I just want her to hold me and say everything will be okay because her touch and her voice saves me every time. She's so warm to me and her touch makes my heart beat a little bit faster, I wish I could make it beat for a little way longer but the problem is we think we have time...