Survive Tomorrow

I'm scared

  Łucja's POV

    I have prepared everything for Callie...but she didn't agree. It broke me honestly. broke me. It's been a week and it's even harder for me to sleep or not cry when I see her but I can't be mad at her... I never was and never will be, it just hurts me so much to know that she doesn't feel the same way about me like I do... but it's okay I'm not gonna let her go, I only want her and I will wait for her to want me too, I have to... I can't live without her and I need her by my side.

     I noticed she was upset for that week too and grew even weaker which terrifies me but I keep strong for her and not let her see what I feel, even though I know she has already figured me out... she says my smile can fool but my eyes never lie.

Callie's POV

     I know I've upset Łucja so much and I know she tries to hide it but her eyes never lie and it hurts me to see the pain in her eyes through her smile and the way she still wants me after I completely broke her... I love this girl so much and it hurts me that I will have to leave her soon... I know it will be hard on her...on everyone around me but that's my fate and I am learning to accept it. However, I won't let her see me in pain before I-I go... I need her to be strong and I want her to remember me as cute girl with bubbly personality and smile and I'll keep on doing that until I physically can't...

I am honestly so so scared about all of this... I'm too young, there was so much stuff I wanted to do; I wanted to marry Lucja; be with her forever. I wanted to become famous with my band; I wanted to go skydiving; I wanted to do all the stupid things people my age do; get wasted, drive until sunset... enjoy life like I always did... This is all not fair!