Sarah Smiles

Chapter 2

Hey!

Sorry I haven't got tent his chapter up yet!

Ugh stupid school and physical therapy!

Also I've been arguing a lot about politics.

Nothing to do with this, but alright.

-TIG16

"God Sarah! You fucking mess everything up... Just go to your room" my mom yells at me as she looks at the floor at the glass bowl I had accidentally dropped.

'I know mom. I'm an awful daughter'

I sigh softly and look at my black toenails.

I start heading upstairs but accidentally bump into my sister on the way.

"Sorry Jess" I say softly.

She shoves me slightly.

This was normal....

All my family hated me.

They said I was the worst thing that could happen to them.

I never understood what I did wrong.

I never will.

But whatever I did....

I'm sorry.

"Watch it freak" she says.

She continues walking downstairs as I continue walking up.

'Im sorry I'm a terrible screw up. I'm sorry I ruined your life.'

I go into my room and softly shut the door looking around my room.

Just looki at it taking it all in.

I had posters all over one wall where you can no longer see the wall color.

I sigh.

My music made me happy.

It could never disappoint me.

I slowly walk over to my bed and lay down staring at my ceiling.

"Why are you such a fucking screw up?" I ask myself letting the tears well up in my eyes.

"Why are you even here...? You're nothing but a screw up and you will never be anything else." I say to myself again

It's true.

I wasn't good at anything.

My siblings hated me.

My parents hate me.

My family hates me.

I sigh and roll onto my side pulling the comforter over me.

As my eyes start shutting I quickly force them open and look at my wrist.

As I'm about to count my scars, I remember the bracelet.

I smile softly.

I wanted to get to know Brendon more.

He seemed like a nice enough kid.

And he didn't know my real name.

So he couldn't call me... Sarah.

I shiver just thinking of the name.

Ew.

Girly!

I would have to give him his bracelet back tomorrow.

I'll just talk to him then.

I mean I did have 3 other periods with him.

I roll onto my stomach and fall asleep.