Sarah Smiles

Chapter 19

Hey guys!

So, yes I'm still in the hospital.

I had my surgery this morning and it hurt like hell.

I wasn't awake for the surgery but you know.... When I woke up it hurt like hell.

Now I'm hooked up to a ton of wires...

Anywho, they said I could be on the internet for2 hours but if i was on for longer I would start screwing up the machines you know blah blah blah.

Anyways I hope thins chapter is atleast all right sorry if it's really short):

-GGB16

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"N-no he didn't I swear I was just joking" I laugh fakely and rub Patricks arms.

He pulls away and looks at me.

He had this look of anger, betrayal, and sadness also something else but I couldn't quite put my finger on it.

But I knew this was not the Patrick I know

"No Sarah! Stop trying to save him! To defend him! Everytime there's something to do with him you never tell me shit!!! Why Sarah why?! Are you still in love with him or something?!!" Patrick yells knocking something off the counter.

I let a tear or two slip letting the words sink in.

Was I still in love with him.

I think back to everything we've been through but then I think of everything he's done wrong but how can I stay mad at him for something he can't change?

It's all coming to me.

"And don't say it's because you guys have a kid together" Patrick says still clearly angry.

I shark my head and look down sniffing.

"No Patrick I don't know how I'm feeling" I say shaking my head looking at the wall now.

I laugh pittily.

"I fucked him last night and you know what... It's better than you have EVER fucked me" I say nodding.

"Sa-"

I cut him off.

"No 'sarah' or 'I'm sorry' nope not this time. I'm done being pushed around by men. It's time for me to stand up for myself. Patrick you've been running my life for two years and I was so blinded by this love we had that we shared and it seemed to have just faded away over the patd couple of months I just don't think I can live my life wondering why I let my time be wasted. I love you. But I can't Love you" I say truthfully.

He nods stuffing his hands in pockets calmed down now.

"I'm sorry Patrick but I think we need to go out own ways." I say softly.

"It doesn't mean anything. I'm never going to hate you because you haven't given me a reason to honestly. I think just this is not gonna work our anymore alright?"'I say softly gong over and kissing his cheek.

I nod and lift his head up to look at me.

"You're gonna find a woman 10x better than me who can give you everything you ever want and be your person I promise and when you find her don't let her go be with her" I smile and wipe a tear that was flowing down his cheek.

He smiles nods and hugs me.

We stand there hugging for a moment.

"I hope the same for you... Except for a guy. Unless you're into girls" he says then chuckles.