Sarah Smiles

Chapter 23

Ahh another update!

Don't know why and don't ask...

Also, this is the last chapter that I will skip days I promise!

Also just in case anyone is confused:

Sarah loves Brendon.

Brendon loves Sarah.

Sarah thinks he's in love with Haley.

Brendon thinks she's completely is over him and hates his guts.

They both think they're over each other when in reality they love each other more than anything, but don't have enough courage to say so.

*cough* anyways...

ENJOY!

-TIG16

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"God! Brendon yes!!!!" I hear Haley scream.

I couldn't sleep.

I know what they're doing in the other room and honestly it made me sick to my stupid stomach.

She was... ick.

I know, I know childish.

Very childish I know.

I groan and try to cover my ears with the pillows.

My phone was dead and so was my iPod and I lost my headphones... great!

Just my luck right.

I put the pillows down and sigh.

So another week has passed and let me tell you it was awful.

I had been cutting everyday.

I wasn't eating anything and Brendon didn't seem to care that I was by now way pale and way skinny.

I didn't have A bad body before but I wasn't the skinniest.

I get up out of my bed once I stop hearin noises coming from Brendons bedroom.

I get up and out of bed walking across the room and opening my door softly.

I pad across the hall into he living room grabbing an extra blanket and pillow.

It was about 5ish in the morning do the sun was barely peeking out.

I miss Patrick man.

What has it been like 3 weeks?!

Day-um!

I need to hang out with him.

I sigh and start tip tiring back to my room when the bathroom door opens and light comes flooding into the hall, momentarily blinding me.

"Sarah? what are you doing?" Brendon asks.

I shake my head shrugging starting to walk to my room again putting the blanket and pillow on my bed.

I lay down and stare at the ceiling my heart just really empty.

(A/N: staring at the ceiling in the dark same old empty feeling in your heart!)

I turn on my side staring at the wall letting my my last thought drift away ask I lose my awakness...?

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I wake up to the sound of loud laughing.

That's it loud laughing.

I open my eyes and sit up now seeing the sun out.

I inhale a sharp breath and rub my eyes sitting there for a minute.

I throw the blankets off me and swing my legs over the edge standing up walking to the door then walking out of the room.

I make my way into the living room to get to the kitchen.

I needed some water.

I make my way into the kitchen getting a glass and filling it with water chugging it down.

It tasted like it was from gods hands.

I was really dehydrated.

I start walking out of the kitchen but am stopped.

I think it's gonna be Brendon but... its not.

I slowly look up and see Patrick.

"Hi" he says.

I don't say anything... it was too early to talk.

I just wrap my arms around his waist and put my head on his chest.

I missed him I really did.

Seriously if I didn't like Brendon at all.... Patrick all day man.

"How are you ?" he asks wrapping his arms around my neck rubbing my back a little.

I shrug.

He nods and his chest moves up and down (obvi) as he takes nice calming breaths.

"I missed you" I whisper really quietly to him.

And I did.

I wasn't gonna deny the fact that I missed Patrick like hell.

"I missed you too Sarah" he kisses my head.

I pull away and look at him faintly smiling.

"You're so thin... like scary thin when was the last time you ate?" he. Asks worried looking over my body.

I shrug.

"Like 4-5 days ago. but I didn't ray a lot just a couple of bites." I admit.

If I didn't tell him be wouldn't have shut up.

"Sarah!!!!" Brendon all of a sudden roars.

What?

"Yeah?" I ask not able to raise my voice.

Brendon storms in the room and gives me the look of death.

I slowly back away but he grabs my wrist pulling me to Him.

I yelp a little from the pain in my wrists from the ccuts

"Brendon man calm-"

"Have you been cutting?" Brendon asks looking me straight in the eyes.

I look down and let the tears well up.

"Answer me" he says harshly.

I knew why he was being harsh... he found out and he didn't like it.

I nod.

"I found the razor in the cupboard when I was looking for the Advil"

I look at him sadly.

"Sarah w-" he starts ask but I stop him by shaking my head.

I

"If you really cared you would know already" I say softly pulling my wrist away turning to pPatrick

"It was really nice seeing you again we need to hangout more" I say smiling fairly at him and hugging him tightly.

"I can stay for little while if you want" he whispers softly in my ear only loud enough for me to hear.

I nod and pull away looking at him.

I turn around to start going to my room and see Brendon still standing there looking at the blade.

I softly take it out of his hands setting it on the counter kissing his cheek and wrapping my arms around his neck.

"I'm sorry... ill stop ok but I'm gonna need your help no more ignoring me." I giggle softly.

He chuckles and nods.

"Ok... I'm sorry"

I shame my head and pull away looking at him.

"Don't be."

With that I walk away into my room with Patrick

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