ι aм every мιѕтaĸe ι ever мade.
ι aм every perѕon ι've ever нυrт.
ι aм every word ι've ever ѕaιd.
ι aм мade oғ ғlawѕ. ~UNKNOWN
Explicit content-Sexual scenes, vulgar language, and Rape.
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"Rape is the only crime in which the victim becomes the accused. " -Freda Adler
/One Week Later/
I feel empty, not necessarily sad but empty. I mean I should feel Guilty, Sad, Or even Regret but I don't feel anything. I'm more relieved than I am anything. I wasn't physically or mentally prepared for a baby. How could I raise a child in the home im in now? How could I live with myself knowing I let Dan win? Yes, having a baby is a precious thing but only on my terms. I understand that me having an abortion will live with me for the rest of my life but I don't regret it.
I've been bleeding and having stomach craps but its nothing to bad, It was expected. My mom And Dan made it home yesterday. I wish they would've extended their stay. Forever.
No seriously.
Jamar spent a lot of time with me this week. He just thinks I've had the stomach bug. He's brought me food almost everyday and even bought me a phone so he can check on me every night. I had to tell him that my mom is really strict and that he couldn't keep coming over to the house like he has been doing these past couple of days. Im really enjoying his company though. I gave my number to Kaha a couple of days ago and he has been calling me a lot. I purposely ignore because I don't want Dan catching me with a phone and since he Knows how Dan can get, he understood. I still didn't know how to feel about the kiss me and Kaha shared. We've barely talked about it which is kinda a good thing. Plus He's got Amber and I don't want to ruin what they have together. Even though I've been hurting this week I've already accomplished taking my replacement test and Putting job applications in at a lot of places. I needed money and it was another good reason to not be at my house. I told my mom about it in certain words she basically told me "About fucking time, I get tired of spending all my money on you." It did hurt my feelings when she said that but whatever After this Year I'm out this Shitty ass house. Dan still set his damn rules about me being home. "School, work, then your ass better be straight home after." I roll my eyes just thinking about him and how he thinks he somebody's daddy.
Jamar said he wanted to take me some where and I have no damn clue what I'm going to wear. I grab a dress from the back of my closet and walk to the mirror that's hanging on my wall. Holding the dress against my body I turn side to side. I never wore it because I never had a reason to wear it. It wasn't that cute but hey I'm not cute so it doesn't matter.
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Sighing I place the dress on the bed and grab my matching bra and panties out my top dresser and go to the bathroom to get in the shower.
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"You look beautiful." Jamar kissed me on the lips before opening the car door and letting me get in.
Gentlemen
"Thank you." I told him once he got in the car. I never feel beautiful so it was hard to believe him.
"You know I missed you right?" He leaned over and kissed me on the nose. "A lot." then again on the lips. I giggled.
