Saving Me ~Nash Grier and Carter Reynolds Fanfic~

Chapter 5

***Violet's POV***

So an hour and a half later of eating rice and chicken and egg rolls and any other Chinese or Japanese cuisine you could think of and watching the smile appear on Morgan's face every time her phone vibrates and she sees his name on her screen. I am happy for her. I am glad she is happy. I just keep wondering if what I felt with Nash was mutual. Or was it just me? I thought we really shared something special... Especially after he asked me for my number... It has been almost 3 hours and I haven't received one text, but in his defense I haven't bothered to send one either. I have been contemplating whether to text him first but always find a reason against it.

As we walk into the brisk summer night with full stomachs, I think about what I am doing tonight and decide to ask mom if Morgan can stay even though she will be on her phone the entire night texting Cameron. But I do miss her company. And who knows how much longer I will have with her?

"Hey mom can Morgan stay the night? I mean if its okay with her and Whitney and Bryan..?" Whitney and Bryan are her parents but also like my second set of parents. I was pretty sure mom would say yes and I know Whitney and Bryan wont mind. They think its healthy for Morgan to give me company. I have to agree with them on that.

"Of course honey. I will call Whitney now if you want to stay Morgan." mom says kindly.

"Yes please." Morgan answers with a smile.

After mom called Whitney and she okayed Morgan's staying, we reach my 3 story house. To be completely honest with me and mom being the only ones living in this big house it is way to big but I don't want to move and I know mom doesn't. So we stay.

We didn't have to stop by Morgan's house due to the fact she has a bunch of stuff she keeps over here. In fact she has her own drawer in my dresser packed full of clothes for almost every season. However she hasn't used it in a while because I have been stuck in the hospital for 5 months.

Mom lets us in the house and Morgan and I retreat to my room. It takes me a few minutes to walk up the grand staircase. Even after mom and Morgan's continuous attempts at helping me I decide to make sure to do it myself. I want to be able to accomplish things on my own, but I know I am doing worse and worse each day. I hate admitting that to anyone including myself though. After 5 minutes of walking up the stairs I reach the top and enter my clean room. it still looks untouched even though I have slept here for two nights. I walk and sit on my bed and Morgan does the following with her eyes glued to her phone as she texts Cameron. I hand her the old sweatpants she keeps here and an old t-shirt of mine. I put on the same along with my purple Nike sports bra. I love comfy clothes. One thing about the hospital I liked was getting to wear whatever I wanted without being judged.

"Wanna paint our nails?" Morgan offers as she sets her phone on the side table next to my bed. I look at my nails and wince in the jagged nails that used to always be perfect for dance recitals. They would always be dark red, or pink, or purple, black, white, French tip, etc. I need to stop thinking about my past. It just upsets me. I miss my ability to dance and go around care free. Those days are slowly disappearing into the abyss.

"I guess I could use some nail polish on these ugly things aye?" I say with a small chuckle following. She lets out a small smile. She stands off the bed and goes to the bathroom. She returns with four colors in hand: sea foam green, pink, orange, and purple. it was a hard decision between sea foam green and purple due to those being my favorite colors. I decide to go with purple seeing it fit to my mood. Lust and want. I want and I feel like I need Nash. I don't know. I just want to be with him more than anything. Morgan picks the neon orange which happens to be her favorite color if you haven't noticed.

"So today was fun." she says while making nice clean marks on my nails with the light purple polish "Thanks for inviting me. Who knew this would be life changing."

I smile and nod. To be honest, I wanted it to be life changing for me too. I was given a ray of hope when Nash asked me for my number but seeing that I haven't received one message or call from him, I fill up with sadness.

"OMG VI! What if me and Cameron get married. Oh emm geeee. I can already see it. Me looking in a full length mirror in a full on white gown with you and Tristyn in the back ground in orange dresses asking me if I am ready. My dad walking me down the aisle as I see you and Tristyn and Sydney on the right and Nash and the rest of MagCon boys on the left. Then there in the middle stands Cameron as gorgeous and perfect as ever with the biggest smile on his face, ugh kill me nowww." she says dramatically. One things we always do when we start to like a guy we always talk about a future with them but this time as she says the story out loud it seems to make sense more than any other time. It seems to fit.

"Jumpin the gun a little Morgan?" I tease and we laugh as she nods feverishly in agreement. Out of nowhere my phone vibrates. My heart leaps in hope. I pick it up forgetting Morgan doing my nails.

"Don't mess up my masterpiece." she threatens. " Is it him?" she asks as I look at my phone.

I see the message and it lightens up my heart and face all at once.

From NASHHHHHH(: *kissyface*

Hey babe. I am so sorry that I haven't texted you all day. I have been so busy but I can not seem to get your beautiful face out of my head. Not that I want to.(;

I smile uncontrollably again and just stare at the message before finally replying.

To NASHHHHHH(: *kissyface*

Awe. Thankss! I was getting worried, I thought maybe you had forgotten about me. Lol. But thanks. It actually feels great to hear from you. It means the world to me.

I send the message and immediately regret it seeing it makes me sound pathetic and needy.

"I am guessing it was?" I almost forgot about Morgan being in the room. she notices the expression on my face. I know it is probably red as a tomato but I don't care at this moment.

"Oh yeah sorry!!" I say and feel my phone vibrate against my thigh.

From NASHHHHHH(: *kissyface*

That makes my day. Like I don't think you understand. I wasn't planning on leaving this convention today with a girl in my mind permanently but you have and I couldn't thank God enough for putting you there today.

If only he knew how he makes me feel whether I am in or out of the hospital. All of the negative thoughts about Nash not wanting me anymore and the hospital escape my mind and I am left in a trance when my phone vibrates in my hand once more before I get the chance to respond.

From NASHHHHHH(: *kissyface*

This might sound weird since I just met you but I think I am falling for you.