Saving Me ~Nash Grier and Carter Reynolds Fanfic~

Chapter 12

***Carter's POV***

After Nash and Violet's "lovey-dovey" shit I decide to put my headphones in and listen to music. Hoping it will take me out of this damn car and into my own perfect world where Violet is under my arm, nuzzled up into the crook of my neck, leaving a trail of kisses on my jaw line. Fuck. I cant stop thinking about her even when music is  flowing through my head. I guess when the song playing is Let Her Go by Passenger doesn't help the situation. Watching them fool around in front of me while this damned song plays tears me apart even more. I probably should change this damned song but I let life as I know it take its toll on me. With every kiss Nash leaves on her perfect lips, cheek or neck I reconsider coming on this "outing" more and more. I even think about jumping out of the car as it is moving. If I wouldn't have come I wouldn't have to feel so empty and depressed. However, I would never hear the end of it from any of the boys and I am sure Violet would be upset.

"CARTERR!!!" Matt yells interrupting my thoughts. I pull out my right head phone to hear him.

"Can I help you?" I snap. I mean I didn't mean to be so rude, but judging on this day is going so far, it is going to be a loonng day and I don't have much patience.

"Geez man calm down. We were just talking about what movie we are planning to watch." he says while Violet and Nash exchange sweet glances at each other. "Anyway... Violet wants to see Divergent. What do you think bro?" Matt asks curiously.

"I don't really care. Tell me when we get to Starbucks." I say while putting my headphone back in. Thank goodness the song has changed. Now it is Counting Stars by OneRepublic. I see Matt talking to Violet and Nash who look as if I had just killed a dog. I am sorry I hate being with the girl I think I am falling for while she is one of my best friend's girlfriend. I see Violet sigh and look into my eyes before I lay my head back on the window drowning myself into music and eventually to sleep.

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"Carter! Wake up bro!" Matt is now shaking me. "Dude. We are at Starbucks. Wake the hell up!" I open my eyes and take my headphones out of my ears. I sit up straight popping my back. "What do you want?" Matt asks everybody in the car before he gives the order to the security member who is driving the car.

"I want a Caramel Flan Frappuccino!" Violet yells happily. I love seeing her like that. All happy and giddy. Smiling from ear to ear. Except when Nash steps in.

"I want what my lovely girl is having." Nash says to Matt while kissing Violet's forehead. Way to be original Nash.

"Carter?"

"Oh I want umm.. a Chocolate Chip Frappuccino." I say to Matt who smiles strangely.

"Dude its like we have the same mind." he laughs lightly and I manage a fake laugh that everyone seemed to fall for. Violet looks at me with a hopeful smile. I return a somewhat real smile back to her. Nash then pulls her out of my gaze and kisses her lightly. Its as if he was trying to make me jealous on purpose. But I know he isn't. He doesn't know how I feel about her. No one does. I don't want to tell anyone in fear of Nash finding out and being mad at me... the thought of maybe it is a good idea to tell and then Violet could be mine ran through my head but I know it would never happen. Within minutes Starbucks cups were being handed into the SUV from the security guards who are communicating with the woman in the drive thru window. "Okay here is one of the Caramel Flans." Matt says while he grabs the cup from the front seats.

"Here love." Nash says sweetly to Violet stroking her long curly brown hair. Fuck. I want that to be me so damn bad. I don't think anyone understands how bad... but she is in love with Nash... Even though she just met him... Well she just met me too... and knows him better than me now my conscience reminds me.