Straight Boy (NatePat)

The Death Of A Bachelor

The guilt was starting to eat away at him.

Nate had done nothing but comply with his stupid ideas and what did he do? He violated him. Nothing was going the way he thought it would. Matt figured he would just talk to nate for a little while and go home knowing he'd made his friend happy but NO! He just had to act on his stupid feelings. Ugh! why was he so impatient!

Matt turned to face the wall and stared at the clock once more. tick tock tick tock tick tock. always ticking always tocking till one day it just stops. It reminded Matt of himself somehow, like a bomb slowly counting own to his inevitable breaking point all the while his brain kept repeating that wretched sound in his head.

Tick tock tick tock tick tock tick tock. 

incessant noise. He got up from his bed leaving his thoughts there with it. Coffee. he needed Coffee. 

He made is way down the stairs step by step like a child being forced to go to school, reluctantly stepping into the kitchen. Everything looked a grayish blue; almost monotone, as if the colored we're drained right out of it. he saw his reflection in the glass windows and saw a shadow, its like he was missing something. someone. but who? all his friends were a phone call away. no one had died. Hell CatPat was in the room with him!? why did he feel so lonely? 

A beep from the coffee maker interrupted his thoughts.  Matt just stood there staring at it, almost like it had offended him somehow. Was this going to be his life now?

Meanwhile at Nate's house he had ran inside and slammed the door behind him. "Fuck!" he yelled at himself "Stupid Stupid Stupid! You were supposed to break things off not kiss him!" he slid down the back of his door settling in a crouching position. Nate shamed himself once more before falling defeat to his emotions.

"This isn't what I wanted." he told himself. "I just wanted to-" he stopped once more, what did he want? and why was he denying himself it? His mind was blank with worry and his body quaked with fear, he sat there for hours before finally he made sense of it all. 

"Matt. I wanted Matt."

Fuck the rain. He pulled open the door And ran out not even bothering to close it behind him... on second thought he went back because he didn't want all his shit stolen BUT AFTER THAT there was no stopping him!

Matt heard the door Crashing into the wall and ran out with wide paniced eyes and a baseball ball bat "NOT TODAY BUDd- Nate?" Nate Ran at him and instantly smacked they're lips together with so much force Matt actually fell back a little. it didn't last long but there's was a very clear effect on Matt.

"What the hell.. even.. What?"

"Matt, i'm really sorry, like really really sorry."

"okay, but why exactly?

"there's no other guy, there never was. I just wanted to spend more time with you."

Matt furrowed his brow slightly. 

"But you told me you got together with someone!"

"I made it up, I just... it was torture being around you and not being able to actually y'know do stuff, I had to break it off," he paused and grabbed Matt's hand "Please, Please forgive me I didn't mean to hurt you."

Matt was taken aback by this, he thought he was the one deceiving Nate, and if he was being honest with himself he still was. He interlocked their fingers and began "Since we're confessing, I really should be honest with you. I may or may not have kissed you in your sleep..." he lowered his voice at the last part and trailed off a bit. Nate pulled his hands away.

"You did what!?" he said clearly concerned. when did this happen but more importantly,      "You never thought to, oh I don't know, ask my consent first?" Matt's eyes widened, he honestly hadn't thought of that part. Isn't that a crime?

Could he go to jail for that?

Matt spurred to explain "No no no no! it wasn't like that you just made me feel really weird the other night so I went in to your room to investigate and I ended up.. watching ... you ... sleep..." His speech slowing down considerably realising he wasn't making the situation any better. "Really it was an accident. I fell and my face hit your face and it just kinda- yeah." He looked down at his feet.

Nate exhaled slightly. raising matts gaze to meet his own. "If you felt that way why didn't you just come talk to me? I thought you were supposed to be the rational one?" the other man raised a brow. "did you not just hear that last sentence?" Nate smiled slightly moving matt head so they were touching foreheads. "Just don't do it again," he pecked him on the lips lightly "At least not while I'm asleep."

The two men laughed at each other letting some of the tension in the air go before they fell to the ground in each others arms. What a fucking day.