Twisted • e.d •

Loosing You...

I take out gang after gang. I felt as if I wanted to accomplish something from this, but I didn't. All I wanted was to be the best of the best. I wanted everyone to do as I say.

People in the gang are saying im becoming more and more violent, thats a load of bullshit. there just mad that I am making the gang so much bigger...

**

I walk up to the new base by the beach. I really enjoyed the remote area and if I felt like going surfing I could.

I walk up to see the smiling face of Ethan. "Hey babe." he says to me as I run into his arms for a hug. The base by the beach didn't have to many people there because of its remote location and most of the members liked the original base. We could be a couple at this base.

"Hey loser." I say smiling into his chest.

"What you up to today?"

"Nothing special, just concocring another gang today.."

"Babe..." he says in a sad tone

"How about me and you go out today? Take a quick break from taking over gangs..." He says to me.
"Ethan I can't do that." I say softly.

"Why not??" Ethan says to me in a scared tone.

"Because I can't Ethan..."
"Babe you can tell me anything."

I lay my head in his chest, I don't really have a reason. I just want everyone to do as I say. I want to rule California. But I can't tell him that!

"I just can't Ethan..."

Ethan pulls me from his chest as his hands hold my shoulders. He stares into my eyes deeply as I stare back.

"April... please just tell me..."

I stare into his eyes as I see sorrow and pain in them, but my answer had no change.

"Ethan I just can't...I'm sorry."

I felt the pain he had in his eyes as I said that. I hate keeping things from him but I just can't tell him that i'm doing this so that I can pretty much rule over everyone.

"Fine then.. can I at least join you today? We haven't really hung out; just me and you..." He says to me looking down to the ground.

"I'm sorry Ethan I am going to do this alone." I feel bad for telling him no, but I don't want him to see me as the killer I am. I have taken leader after leader out in the most screwed up ways, from Russian roulette , to just throwing a grenade into there office and blowing them up. I am terrible, I already know that.

"Fine then." He says roughly, then pushing himself to the exit. He was probably going to go to the beach, i'm going to grab my board and hang out with him before I go.

ETHANS POV

'What the hell! Why won't she fucking let me go with her? What did I do? She doesn't know about Unknown... right?'

I speak to myself as I make my way to the beach. Hoping she didn't find out what went really down with Unknown.

I get to the beach as I rip my shoes off and begin walking across the cold sand. I feel it run between my toes. I close my eyes and listen to the sounds of the waves crash. I love the beach so much, for some reason it reminded me of April... It could be peaceful and loving, at the same time it could drag you under and drown you easy.

I stop as I reopen my eyes. I look at the ocean and smile to myself, I never really noticed how alike they were, and I loved both of them so much.

APRILS POV

I change into a simple one piece, it was all black and was long sleeved. I grab my surfboard that I had blood and guts tainted across it. I smile as I run out to the beach. I see Ethan and speed up. I smile as I run towards him, then yell out,

"EAT MY DUST!"

I hit Ethan's butt then run out to the water. He look at me frustrated as he then rips off his shirt and begins swimming towards me.

I pick up the speed, but it's a lot harder to paddle a surfboard than it is to move your own body.
He catches up to me and jumps onto my board.
"Whose eating dust now?" He asks with a devilish smile.
"It's still you." I swing my body to the side and flip over the board then jump on top and begin to paddle again.
I hear him reach the surface as a wave starts to come in. I begin paddling against the wave then start riding. Ethan watches me as I go by and starts swimming my way. I see him and decided to go to shore and wait for him. I sat on the edge of sand and water. Waiting.
He gets to me and says, "nice move April."
I giggle and smile to him. He goes and sits next to me as I rest my head on his shoulder. I close my eyes as we sit in peaceful silence. Then the silence was broken by Ethan's echoing voice,
"April... why don't you want me to know about your raids." I mentally scream to myself and then reply,
"Just cause."
"Please tell me." He says sincerely
"Ethan... please. Can we not talk about that right now."
"Why not April? It shouldn't be a tough subject to talk about, having be we're both in a gang."
"Ethan, I just don't want you to know. That's all."
"That's not a good enough answer April. Tell me the real reason. You shouldn't be ashamed of anything."
"Ethan. I just don't want to tell you... can we leave it at that?" 
"No April. Why don't you want me to know?" His tone slightly raises.
"Because I don't Ethan! Can we just drop the subject!" I begin to become louder myself.
"ARE YOU TRYING TO HIDE SOMETHING FROM ME!"
"NO ETHAN WHY WOULD I?!"
"BECAUSE YOU WONT TELL ME WHY I CANT GO WITH YOU!"
"ETHAN I ASKED YOU TO DROP IT! PLEASE!"
"NO WERE TALKING ABOUT IT NOW! BECAUSE I WANNA KNOW!"
"ETHAN ITS SOMETHING I DONT WANT TO TELL YOU WHY CANT YOU UNDERSTAND THAT!"
We're not standing up and in each other's face. Staring into each other's eyes with anger and frustration.
"JUST TELL ME APRIL THEN WE CAN END THIS CONVERSATION!"
"ILL TELL YOU WHAT I WANT TO TELL YOU WHEN I WANT TO! YOU DONT DECIDED WHAT I DO AND DONT DO!"
I was heated. I was so close to bursting. I asked for the subject to be dropped but he just kept going.
"APRIL FOR FUCKS SAKE WHAT COULD BE SO BAD! JUST TELL ME!"
"ETHAN FOR FUCKS SAKE WHY DO YOU KEEP PUSHING ME! ITS MY CHOICE TO TELL YOU THINGS! YOU DONT HAVE TO KNOW WHAT IM FUCKING DOING EVERY TWO SECONDS JESUS CHRIST! STOP ACTING LIKE YOUR MY DAD AND LAY OFF!"
"IM JUST CONCERNED!"
"IF YOU ARE SO CONCERNED THEN HOW ABOUT I LIGHTEN YOUR LOAD AND WE BREAK UP!"
That was it. I was so livid at that moment. Ethan stood there silent as I let my anger get the best of me.
I stare at him and then turn grab my board and run off.
I go to the base and quickly run to my new office to change.
Smokey sat in a wheelie chair spinning round and round.
"Smokey get out!" I say harshly.
"Reaper are you ok?" He asks concerned
"SMOKEY I SAID TO GET THE FUCK OUT!" I boom out.
Smokey looks at me and then gets up and leaves. I go and change then go to a window that was in my office and make my way out from there. It was a fire exit but I use it if I want to get out quick.
I rush out and jump onto my bike.
I begin biking to my special spot once again.
**

I sit on the swing listening to the trees move in the wind. I was still pissed off at Ethan and how he wouldn't back off. I turn on my phone to see the time and my lock screen shows a picture of Ethan and man did that hit me hard.

((THE PHOTO AT THE TOP! ❤️❤️))

I look at my hands as I see small droplets on them. I then feel my face and feel tears rushing down them. I then start to bawl my eyes out. I slowly begin to realize what I had done. And how unhappy I was without Ethan. I know it was my anger talking when I broke up with him. I don't know if Ethan will take me back. I have so many things wrong with me, and I ended us so irrationally. God dammit. I wish I could go back in time and slap myself in my face.