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Somin's POV

I've been thinking about what Yejun said . I mean , I like him as a friend but i didn't expect him to feel that way . Especially , towards me .

His a famous Model , Why would be like me ?

I'm like an ugly duckling . Quack .

I looked into the mirror , " Kang Somin , It's either you hurt him or you accept him . Stop being indecisive . " I sighed .

I Didn't want to hurt Yejun but I didn't want him to think that he has a chance with me . I'm like So Confused .

I walked out of the Washroom and I saw Yoona .

The room .

I cling onto Yoona and pulled her to the room that Minhyuk is in . But it isn't like what I've expected .

Yoona's POV

Somin pulled me into a dark room . Is she going to kidnap me ? am i going to die ?

I got pushed into the room and the light turned on .

I couldn't believe what i just saw .

Im Minhyuk .

And .

Hyuna .

I felt tears rolling down my eyes , so this is what they wanted me to see . Do people hate me that much ? I glared at every single one of them before running out of the room .

My heart hurts so much .

It felt like someone stabbed a knife into it . Why am i such a coward ? Why am i always the one getting hurt ? Why am I , me ?

I stood by the rooftop .

" It feels so nice . " I smiled to myself and i spread my arms . " What happened if I could fly ? " I looked around , " Should I try flying ? " I laughed to myself .

I suddenly felt someone backhugging me .

" Shin Yoona. "

Im Minhyuk.

He hugged me so tight , " I'm Sorry . " I yanked his arm off and walked off . He ran to me , " That's what you meant right ? Proof of you liking me ? " He shook his head , " It's not like that ! "

I'm sick of hearing lies . I know i'm never welcomed but I can't believe i like a jerk like him , or maybe even love .

Whenever I see him , my heartbeats faster than I could ever imagined . I got so nervous that i swear i could fly . Whenever I see him with another girl , my jealously level shot up . Whenever I'm around him , I would only notice him .

But i'm a fool . A fool to believe Im Minhyuk actually like me . A fool to think that I would be with Im Minhyuk . A fool to think people started to accept me .

I took out my phone from my pocket .

" Shin Yoona , are you done ? " I asked myself ,
" You've changed so much compared to the past , you changed yourself for the sake of others' . Who are you ? I don't even recognise you now . "

I went to our school's library , since it's quiet there and I could get some time off , by myself .

I stared at my past pictures .

I could see an obese girl , a girl no one likes , a girl no one wants to be friends with , a girl no one bothers about , a girl no one knows and a girl that isn't important to anyone .

Who is she ?

That's me .

That obese girl is None other than Shin Yoona , Shin Yoona is a coward . She's someone that changes herself so that she would be popular .

I might seemed as if i'm happy on the outside but no one knew , no one knew how much I've suffered . I've suffered from Anorexia and Depression , no one knows how much I've kept in .

Because no one bothers .

I felt my phone vibrating thousands of times , I looked over at it . Why are people only concern about someone if they are skinny and popular ? What if i'm the old Shin Yoona ? Would anyone care about me ?

I walked out of the library and into the washroom to wash my face .

" PASS ME ALL OF YOUR MONEY ! " I heard a girl screamed , " I-I Don't have A-Anymore left ! " I heard a laugh , " I bet you spent it all on food or maybe diet products so you could lose all these fats that you have . "

I rolled my hand into a fist .

" Stop . " I said and everyone stared at me . I walked towards them , " Get away from her . " They seemed shocked , " Stop trying to get money from someone you think is weaker than you , You guys are the cause of people trying to change themselves , people suffering from depression , because of you guys ! " I screamed .

They ran out of the washroom .

The girl sat on the floor , crying .

" Are you okay ? " She stared at me , " Why did you help me ? " I smiled , " Why can't I help someone that needs help ? " She points at herself , " I'm fat and unpopular . "

" So ? " She seemed shocked , " But your popular , skinny and pretty . " I smiled . I took out my phone and showed her the old Shin Yoona .

" Do you believe if i say that i'm her ? " She shook her head , " But that's the old me . " Her eyes widened , I smiled . I sat beside her , " I used to be bullied as well , people trying to get money from me . But they expected me to always have money so they aimed at me before break time , "

" I wanted to be like them so bad , so I tried changing myself . I tried different products to lose weight , I even wanted to cut off my fats right away . I suffered from Anorexia and Depression , I felt useless . I'm scared people would judge me and it accumulates up , Social Anxiety . I wanted to give up on myself so bad , no one even wants me in this world anymore . "

I smiled at her , " But guess what ? " She waited for me to continue , " I overcame it . I stood up to the bullies , despite me being scared , I stood up for myself . If i didn't stand up for myself , who would ? Who would want to hurt themselves just for someone like me ? "

She nods , " So I should stand up for myself ? " I nod , " Don't be afraid and stand up for yourself , if you need someone to talk to , I'll be here to hear you talk okay ? remember me , Shin Yoona . " She smiled and walked off after thanking me .

I'm glad I've overcame that obstacle . Those out there , if your in this position or something similar , try talking to someone you trust or an adult to solve your problem . Keeping it to yourself wouldn't help you , or message me if you have any problem .

22nd March 2017