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Ch.22 The Breakup

Maya wasn't at my home, when I arrived. This was a relief because it gave me time to figure out how I was gonna break the news to her. Lord knows she's a good woman, but being with Brooklyn, I feel so alive. I thought I had stop loving her, but being around her, our talks, cute antics, and even the arguments is what I missed with Brooklyn.
Texting Maya: Can you come over tonight, have dinner with me around 8. We need to talk...

Maya: Are you okay Jordyn? Should I be worried? I'll be on my way, when I'm finished helpingy moms out. I love you...
Jordyn: I love you too, drive safe

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DINNER TIME:
There's a knock at the door, that must be Maya. I take a deep breath as I open the door to greet her. "Hey babe, I say low.

Maya Cocks her head to the side just staring at me. "Jordyn, I don't need you to sugar coat anything with me." What's wrong with you? This isn't you?

I Look at Maya with tears in my eyes, Lord knows she doesn't deserve this, am I making a mistake with following my heart?

Maya: And I know something is wrong babe, because you barely cry. I don't even have an appetite to eat anymore, just talk to me baby. Maya says grabbing my face to look at her.

Jordyn: Can we sit down and talk then? Maya, I need to be honest and clear with you about Homecoming about everything.

Maya: Homecoming?? Lemme guess you ran into your ex? I shake my head yes.
Um hm... so what happened, when y'all saw each other Jayy? Maya says with an attitude?

Tears in my eyes, I told her about the conversation we had, and how we kissed in the car. How we work together, and I stayed at her house, where we had sex...
LET Me be clear, I don't agree with cheating no matter the situation. And I've never cheated up until this point, I am ashamed of my actions. I honestly never thought it would be me, I've always been on the other side of the Spectrum. This shit hurts so bad, because I disobeyed my morals, and most of all I hurt a great woman who loves me unconditionally...

Maya sitting there with tears in her just rocking back and forth. Why Jordyn is all she could say?

Maya, I do honestly love you. But even after all this time, I realize I'm in love with her. I didn't lead you on, I swear baby I didn't. When, I saw her that day in the hospital everything came rushing back. I Should've told you, we were working together, but I was still trying to process it myself. Grabbing Maya's hands ( this looks all too familiar) look at me Maya... I'm not asking you to understand where I'm coming from, but I am asking you to one day to find it in your heart and soul to forgive me... I need you to forgive me Maya looking into her eyes. I see nothing hurt. Fuck my life man... please say sonething

Maya: I stared at Jordyn for the longest, trying to gather my thoughts. The girl I thought, I was going to live happily ever after with just told me her heart belongs to somebody else. Just thinking about it caused more tears to fall. "I do understand where you coming from, I've been in the same position as you." It hurts, but I understand what your heart desires you can keep fighting it all you want but eventually the heart will when." It hurts, because I thought I finally had gotten it right. You know, I thought I had found my Queen. I love you so much Jordyn, but I would be a hypocrite to act the fuck up. I wished you would've talked to me, I know you were trying to spare my feelings. But I thought we had a strong enough relationship, where our communication was strong.

Jordyn: Maya Camiella Vasquez, you are amazing. You deserve someone that's going to give you their all and then some. I do love you, because you are an amazing person. I am so sorry Maya, I swear hurting people is the last thing I aim to do.

Maya: *Kissing her on the lips* Jordyn, I know you're sorry. I gotta go, don't call me, I'll call you.

Looking at the door, I felt defeated. While I'm overjoyed that I have Brooklyn back in my life, Im hurt that betrayed Maya.

Lord, please forgive me...