harry
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i woke up to my phone vibrating.
"hello?" i asked sleepily.
"harry? is that you?" the person on the other side of the line asked.
"jay? is that you?" i asked back, curious.
"yes, yes. it's me. h, this is about louis. he got into an accident." she replied, sadness evident in her voice.
i hold back my tears and asked for the location. he was in doncaster, back at home. if only i stayed there a little longer, i could've talked things through. i rushed to pack my things. a sense of guilt and sadness flowed over me. if only i tried my best to find him. what happened? this accident is my fault, if only i kept my mouth shut. it hurts to know that he cheated on me.
i recalled the day i met zayn in louis' house. we then saw him looking at us, sadness and guilt clearly shown on his pretty and tired face. he ran after seeing us.
"what the fuck zayn? why are you here?" i shouted at zayn, furious.
"why the fuck are you here? he told me you guys broke up. plus, we've been having a good time together and it's been a week since he last texted me so i came to check. chill mate!" he said all defensive.
louis cheated. he fucking cheated. i was mad, upset and disappointed. how could he? after what we've went through? he proposed for fucks sake. he was going to marry me and this is what he did. god, i really thought he loved me. i was done with him. i wanted to break it off after seeing him. and now of course he had to be involved in an accident.
i'm furious. my blood boils at the thought of him. i can't bear to look at his face without wanting to slap it. after what i did for him. hell, i even lost my virginity to him, thinking he was "the one". oh suck my left nut! now instead of sadness, all i can feel is hatred and disgust. why didn't i think of the possible outcomes that could happen? yes, love is fucking blind and so am i.
since jay called me i had no choice but to visit, not wanting to hurt her feelings. fuck you louis. if you were to ever wake up, i'll strangle you to death. after everything we've went through. you even promised you won't cheat, the fuck happened to that? i'm in disbelief. zayn you douchebag! i can't believe louis said we broke up! bitch, you were about to marry me you dick face.
honestly i thought that we could actually talk things through but after hearing what you did with zayn, there's not going to be another 'us'. remorseless, that is all i could feel. thank god i found out about this before we got married. imagine getting married to a cheater. i don't ask for much, just attention, love and loyalty. is that hard? what does zayn have? a bigger dick than i do? good for you louis, i hope you die choking on it.
fucking twat. didn't even think about me when he did it! he wasn't even fucking drunk when it happened. if he wakes up, the first thing i'll be doing is throwing the ring he gave me right at his face and leaving. after all of this is over, i'm leaving and i'm not coming back. screw louis! he's perfectly fine with zayn.
the drive to doncaster is estimated to be around 2 hours. god bless it's only 2 hours. i wouldn't even bother if it's longer than that. why waste time for someone i don't even like anymore? why waste my time for him? he clearly doesn't love me since he cheated. all i can think of are the things zayn and louis did. we didn't even do half the shit they did. did we really have vanilla all the time? he could've asked. i was a masochist for fucks sake.
i sighed, this situation stresses me out. all i wanted was to just live a happy life with louis after marrying him. and now, i have to find someone new. i can't go back to him. the thought of him cheating hurts me so much. it hurts so much. mum told me that if something makes you upset, you take it out of your life. i'm sorry louis, this wasn't the first time you cheated. i don't think i can do this anymore. i'm constantly hurting in this relationship, i'm not myself anymore. i'm leaving louis. just one last time seeing you before leaving. just know that i will always love you.
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author's note!!
ola my bitches! sorry i uploaded a bit late today!i hope you like it. this chapter is straight up shit i admit, i didn't know what to write and went with the flow. i'm exhausted and i just woke up so bear with me. please vote and leave a comment. day 4 of daily uploads i guess. i hope you are enjoying this book so far. thanks for reading, i love you.
talk soon. love, a
