I Will Fix You (Ziall)

Chapter 21

Niall's vision is blurry. All that he could make out is he's in the bathroom. And there's someone's hands there, searching for something.

The hands found what it's looking for under a bottle of something. The hands held the bottle a little too long. Niall tried to read the bottle's name but he can't.

The hand then puts down the bottle and grab the thing it had been looking for. Niall think it's some kind of metal but he's not really sure because of his blurry vision.

Then something dropped. Something liquid. And it dropped on the sink, and dropped, and dropped.

And then everything blacked out.

When Niall 'woke up' again, he feels dizzy and restless and tired. It seems to him that the world is rotating-fast. And other than that, he can't feel anything at all.

His vision is still blurry but he can make out that he's in the street, walking shoeless.

With his every step, the liquid drop.

One step, one drop.

One step, one drop.

One step, one drop.

One step, one drop.

And Niall fell into unconsciousness again.

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The next morning, Niall had skull-wrecking headache.

"Again Niall?" A voice spoke.

"Not now, please." Niall said and he ran his right hand on his face.

The man gave him a water some kind of medicine.

"For your headache." The man said.

Niall drank them and sighed.

"It's just less than two weeks since the last time you came here and now you're here again."

"Look, I can't control myself okay? I didn't even know I was doing it!" Niall said, frustrated.

"So what do you mean by that?" The man said, crossing his arms in front of his chest.

"I mean, I can't control it. It's like," Niall shrugged, "Like a body instinct."

"So..." The man said like he's urging the blonde lad to continue.

"I know what you're going to say next. Please, do me a favor and save the preach later. I've already told you-"

The man cut off Niall.

"No. We're going to talk about it here, now."

"Oh, joy!" Niall threw his hands in the air giving up.

"So what you're trying to say is, this has become one of your 'body mechanism'. Like when you're sad, your body just moves by itself like it has its own brain and do it. Am I right?"

Niall just stare at the man blankly.

"And you don't see the point." The man added. Niall just continued to stare at him.

"You see, everytime you're sad, you do it. Your body do it. Again, why? Because you're sad! Afraid! Lonely! Disappointed! And those lads makes you feel those emotions Niall! Logically speaking, they're the main factors why you do it!"

"And you really think I won't be lonely if I ever leave them? I'll only feel more alone! Besides, I vowed to protect them, to stop them from being hurt, to be always there for them, to guide them, t-to love them. To... to f-fix them.."

Niall's voice faltered as he spoke.

"That's where you are wrong Niall. It's always them. Haven't you thought about your family? Your other friends? Your mother? Your... yourself?"

The man sighed heavily.

"Besides, you're talking as if

You're the only one who can save them. Remember this Niall: the only one who can fix them is themselves. Just like you, the only one who can fix you is you. Why can't you see that?"

Niall's head is down and he's fumbling with the hem of his shirt. The man looked at him with pity and sympathetically.

"Sleep. You'll need it. Leave when those are healed." Said the man and he left.

Niall laid down on the bed again. And he shut his eyes to his surroundings, his mind to his thoughts and himself to everything.

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Sorry for the typos and grammatical errors.