Deeper waters

Love?

I tip toed down the hall into the laundry room, Auntie was asleep along with Nate, the perfect time to carry out​ my plan. I grabbed the now stainless white shirt out of the dryer bringing it tight into my chest, I loved how the shirt felt on my cold skin.

I carried it to my room and called Hector. It took him forever​ to answer the phone but when he did a smile spread ear to ear.

"Hello?"

"Hey babe, uh...You left your shirt here and I was wondering if I could come over." I bit my lip with a smile.

"Come over?"

"I thought we should catch up on some things.  Maybe you could give me a tour of the apartment...A tour of your bedroom." He went quiet on the other end. I waited uneasily for his answer.

"No." Hector said.

"What!"

"Come on papi, I need you." I heard a female voice in the background, he shushed her before speaking again, "Uh I'm just going to go to bed." He said. The phone clicked and the call ended, but I still kept it to my ear. Who was that?

Maybe, it was his sister? Do sister's call their brothers papi? Ugh, what the hell is going on! Maybe, he's just bored, I could spice it up.

I walked to my closet and grabbed the shortest skirt I had and a tube top, before painting my lips a dramatic red. I looked in the mirror and smirked, he won't get any sleep tonight, what's got him so tired anyway? He's a night owl, this wasn't like him at all. Okay! Stop it, April! He loves you. Tonight he's going to prove it.

I creeped past Nate and Aunt Stephanie's rooms before tip toeing down the stairs. Aunt Stephanie's keys were looped on a nail by the front door. I grabbed them and held them tightly in my hands. Do I really want to do this? Aunt Stephanie will be so mad, and hurt. Nate will just be pissed but when is he not? Then there is Hector, I want to make him happy and surprise him. I looked back at the stairs to the keys in my hand before I walked out the door and didn't look back.

I drove to Hector's apartment and stepped out of the car. Okay, April, there's no going back now. I fixed my hair and tugged at my tube top before walking upstairs. The apartment building was quiet, except for the occasional TV you would here behind one of the resident's doors. I smiled to myself, that's what it was! The TV in his apartment! That's​ where the girls voice came from! I had gotten myself all worked up for nothing.

When I came to Hector's apartment door I called his phone. I could hear it ringing loudly from inside, but he didn't answer. The door was slightly cracked, which was bizarre. No one leaves their door open in the middle of the night. What if something happened! What if he's​ hurt! I hurriedly pushed open the door. My mouth dropped and tears filled my eyes. There he was on the living room floor, planting kisses all over her naked body. Her hands were laced in his hair while his tongue trailed against her. She smiled and gasped until her head turned my way, then she shrieked.

Hector along with the girl he was on top of scrambled off the floor. All of us stared at each other in shock. I looked at the girl sliding on her clothes, her black hair falling down her back, her brown eyes, flawless skin, pretty face, and curves that I could never have. "April?" Hector called .

Tears ran down my cheeks and my body shook, "Nate was right." It was hard to admit it but, he was. My brother tried to protect me, he tried to warn me and I didn't listen.

"April no he isn't, I love you." Hector said.

His eyes were red and he jerked every now and then. The powder was still on his nose. Hector eased closer to me and I cried harder. "April, just calm down." Hector said. He grabbed my hands and as much as I wanted him to hold me I jerked them away.

"Don't tell me to calm down Hector!"

I saw his face change to hurt then anger, his fist was clenched at his sides, "Is this how you're going to do me. After I told you I loved you!" He yelled. He grabbed my arm holding me tight, I winced in pain. 

"Nate was right!" I cried, "You're nothing but a cheating cocchead!" I screamed.

It was like slow motion. His hand impacted my face with a screeching pain, it snapped​ my head and I fell to the ground. Even when I fell I was still on fire, like a thousand shards of glass penetrated my skin. My eye felt it all, I was afraid it would tumble out of my skull. The apartment was quiet, so quiet. I was frozen on the ground. I didn't even sob, the tears I did cry were mute.

"Don't you ever talk to me like that again!" He yelled. I look up at him and he froze. His eyes ran over me with regret. 

"I won't ever talk to you again." I whimpered before heaving a sob into my knees.

"Oh, baby." Hector's arms swooped​ under my legs bringing me into his chest, I screamed and tried to get way but he only held me tighter. He took me to his room and laid me down on the bed. I curled into a tight ball hearing his footsteps exit. I heard them arguing in the living room.

"Tienes que irte."

"¡En serio!"

"¡Vete de aqui!"

"Que te jodan!"

"Que te jodan!"

Then the door slammed. 

I curled myself tighter when I heard him coming back. I heard​ him stop at the end of the bed. I turned over and looked at him, "I thought you loved me." I cried before turning back over.

His hands wrapped around my ankles and he slowly pulled down my legs. "Hector, stop." I whined. He slowly pulled down my skirt and parted my legs, "Stop it, Hector." 

He crawled on the bed and kissed me from my legs to my v in the middle. I arched my back and gripped the sheets. I bit my lip and squirmed as he kissed me there. I seized my thighs and squeezed them close, Hector looked at me in surprise. I shook my head, "No, Hector." I whimpered, a tear slowly ran down my cheek. I brought my legs to my chest and wept. 

The bed sank next to me and his arms wrapped around my waist. "I'm sorry, April." He said.

"Why?" I breathed. I turned towards him.

"I can't lose you, I love you so much." He said.

I brought my hand to his face and wiped the powder from his nose. I couldn't bring myself to kiss him, knowing that they belonged to someone else. This wasn't love, you don't hurt the one you love. "I have to go." I said.

 I hopped out of the bed and pulled up my skirt, I looked back at him, "I'll see you tomorrow." He said, with hope in his eyes. I gave him a sad smile, and said, "No you won't." Then I ran out of the apartment. I heard him calling my name but I didn't look back, I got in the car and drove off. 

When I came home I went to the bathroom, what I saw disgusted me. My face was a mess, but my eye. My eye was black and slightly swollen.  I knew then that I couldn't do it, I sighed and walked out of the bathroom to my bedroom. I laid in bed, the only comfort being my sheets and tears. God, why does love have to hurt?