Healing The Desolated Heart

VI

Val's Pov

I saw her in a white room, resting in a bed. Barley breathing. Looking white as snow yet smiling so wide despite all the fears that she tries to hide.

"Hey Val, how's it going" she asked me but I didn't anwer nor looked at her

"I'm fine don't worry. You know it hurts me to see you like this" she continued

"How can I not worry when your barely gasping for air?! Don't you know it also hurts me to see you like this" I told her

"Val... Please be strong for me, I may not be with you as you grow up but I know that you have strength inside your heart to surpass this" she smiled, holding my hand tightly. Next thing I knew my vision blurred as my tears start to fall

"H-how can you smile so b-bright despite all of this" I asked her

"I smile because I have survived everything that the world has thrown me. I smile because even if I'm in pain I know that your not the one suffering" she brushed her hand against my cheeks and wiped my tears

"Don't say that Quinn. Your the strongest person I know, you helped me stand up when I felt that the whole world keeps pushing me down. So please let me return the favour and help you stand up against this fight" I said encouraging her

"This is different Val. This is a fight then I... even you... can't win. So now I'm asking you to have courage, strength and bravery to rise up after this, like what your doing now....." she said catching her breath

"I want to t-thank you for being there with me every time I n-need you, t-thank you f-for being the best f-friend and sister anyone c-could ever imagine. I hope that you can m-move on and w-will always rememver me i-in your heart. I-i love you V-valerie" and with that her heart stopped beating. It was like the whole world stopped moving and I was alone again, just like I was when I was a kid.

-

I woke up suddenly feeling the fresh breeze against my skin. I felt dried tears against my cheeks and found my mom lying on a hospital bed looking so worried.

I hate hospitals.

"Thank God your awake, you were crying for heavens sake. I thought something happened, are you okay?" my mom asked worriedly

"I'm okay mom, I just had a bad dream about her" I said looking down

"Val, take my hand" she told me then I gently took it

"You need to accept your past without regret, handle your present with confidence, and face your future without fear. You and your dad are my past, present, and future. So whatever happens to me I will face it with no regret but acceptance, no fear but confidence" mom continued

"Mom... please don't say that. You're not going to die any time soon" she looked at me then tears began to form in her eyes

"You don't get the point, what I mean i-" my breathing came to a halt as my mom was cut off when the doctor and my dad went inside the room.

Everything's going to be fine

Everything's going to be fine

Everything's going to be fine

Everything's going to be-

"I am terribly sorry but I have bad news" the doctor said. I felt like everything suddenly stopped, waiting for the doctor to say what was the problem

"Ms. Stevens, I'm afraid you have Meningitis. It is a rare infection that affects the delicate membranes that covers the brain and spinal cord. It can spread between people in close contact with each other, meaning your family can catch it. If it is not treated soon it can lead to death. I am terribly sorry" the doctor explained then he excused himself and left the room.

No one dared to say anything

No one dared move

We just stood there in shock, hearing our breathing slowly going up and down

"I'm so sorry darling" my dad finally decided to break the silence and hugged my mom but I just stood at the same spot I was in, staring at them

I don't know what to say...

I don't know if I should cry...

I don't know if I should react...

What I thought I know is that I'm not made out of galss, but why do I feel like breaking piece by piece

I decided to go home to clear my thoughts.

When will it end?

When will all the suffering and pain end

When everyone is gone? When all my love ones leave me inside this tortured planet

When I was little I thought everything is good and pure, everything is all rainbows and cupcakes... But I was foolish enough to believe that.

So foolish

There might be times when I was happy but after those small laughs and smiles comes a whole new world of darkness and pain

Like a bubble, at first you float freely but when seconds pass it'll just pop... gone... forever

You see, I'm like a bubble, I was free but Quinn died. She was like the outer part of me, now that she popped... gone forever... I'm now lifeless that has no reason to live in this dark world

But now I have built a wall to be strong and to fight against the thorns of suffering, but with my mom at stake I'm not sure if my walls are strong enough for another thorn to break these barriers

"If only we were made perfect and happy" I sighed sitting on my bed while looking at pictures of my Mom, Dad, Quinn and I. We were family, but a member left. Leaving sadness and sorrow to drown us.

-

"C'mon Val make a wish" I remember a 9 year old Quinn smiling, her gums peering through.

We were lying on the grass of our backyard looking at the stars and then luckily we saw a shooting star pass by

"What did you wish dear?" my Dad asked me

"Its a secret dad, you can't tell wishes" my 6 year old self giggled

"Well I hope it comes true" mom smiled at me

What they didn't know was it already came true... for a moment

Because what I wished was us. My family. Bonding together, laughing, and enjoying every second... forever

-

"Lies, nothing in this world is meant to be forever, not even a single smile" I snickered

"Don't let your past make you unlovable" I heard a voice say before I drift into a deep sleep

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Chapter 6 is now up! I know 'too much drama its just the 6th chapter' well this is what this book is about. So you'll read ALOT of crying and dramatic words going on here and there.

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