Healing The Desolated Heart

VIII

Val's Pov

"So..." Ethan gestured his hand signaling me to start, I sighed not knowing what to do

Am I really gonna tell him?

Am I just embarrassing myself?

I shook my head trying to escape the conflicts going on inside my mind

"If its taking you that long, I guess I'll just start then" Ethan fidgeted with his hands nervously, I nodded my head in response

"I have this one dream where I was running away from a really huge tsunami heading towards me, and every time I try to outrun it it catches up and drowns me" He laughed, and I continue to scribble on my notebook trying to figure out what that dream meant

"I know its weird, even I think it is. But I really want to know what it means- if it means anything" He continued

"First of all, that was the weirdest dream I've heard in my entire life. But I don't get the fact that you were outrunning a tsunami, you do know that its faster than you, right?" I told him and he nodded

"Maybe its because I was scared of tsunamis when I was a kid?" He raised his eyebrows in wonder

"Maybe..." I drowned myself in possibilities of what that meant "Enough about me. How about you, what's your dream like?" He asked in search of the most hidden thing that I have been keeping

"Lately, I have been dreaming about me burying myself within a lake frozen over ice, and each night I hear the sound of it slowly cracking and opening" I told Ethan, staring at my feet, not daring to look at him

I don't know if I explained it well. But what I do know is the hard feeling inside my chest that was stopping me from breathing was finally gone

"That's some serious and deep dream right there" Ethan managed to reply

"Can't sleep at night?" He asked me "yeah... I guess so" I replied

Suddenly my phone began to ring, I looked at the caller and saw that it was my dad then I immediatley answered it

"H-hello, dad? I'm kind of in the middle of something here" I told him

"Y-your mom, s-she's in the emergency room. She's s-shaking and- please just come here" dad said, his voice stuttering

"Dad? Dad!" I began to worry only to recieve a concered look on Ethan's face

"Val, what happened?" He asked, his eyes full of sincerity

"My mom, s-she" Tears began to form in my eyes. I tried to hold it back but I was in full panick mode

"Calm down Valerie. Tell me what happened, one by one" He held my shoulder to calm myself down

"My m-mom... i-in the hospital... sick... emergency and-" before I could finish what I was about to say, I found myself sitted on a motorcycle holding on for dear life

"I'll take you there, just hold tight and take deep breaths" he furrowed his eyes in concentration once he started driving

I tried to take his advice while praying that I get there safely

"We're here, which room is it?" Without hesitation he held my hand to walk faster

Why do I think that he looks more concered than me?

Why does he look so sad in the mention of an emergency?

What happened to him?

"Emergency room" I eventually told him "Here. Wait." He made me sat on a chair infront of the emergency room and began to ask the nurses where my mom was

That was very thoughtful of him. I smiled

"Val? Thank god your here" my dad hugged me tightly. I looked around in search of my mom, only to find Ethan leaning against a wall, smiling at the scenery of me and my dad with a mix of worry

"Where's mom? Dad, tell me what happened" I asked dad hoping to find answers, my heart beating fast hoping that she was fine

"I decided to visit her today and ask how she's doing, but when I got here I saw her hand shaking and I asked her what's wrong, she said that she can't feel her legs anymore, I got worried then called a doctor. They told me to wait outside and they'll check up on her. But when I was about to leave I saw her whole body shaking and a whole bunch of doctors and nurses came inside the room" My dad said, almost crying

"Will she be okay?" That was the only question I wanted to ask and hope that I'll get a good answer

"Listen to me Val. If she makes it or not we have to stay strong, you have to stay strong" My dad held my hand and looked at me straight in the eyes

"I don't want you to shut yourself and everyone else out. I don't want you to lock yourself in your room forever. I don't want the past to happen all over again. When Quinn died it was the downfall for all of us, so I'm asking you to stay strong for the sake of your mother" my dad hugged me tightly once more

I cried on his shoulder and saw the doctor walking towards us.

"Sir, this may be hard for you, but I'm very sorry..." the doctor said

There were so many thoughts going on inside my head at this moment. Its only been a day when the doctor told us she was sick

But She can't possibly be-

"Gone? Is she gone" I asked the doctor, I was on the verge of crying... waiting for the word that I didn't want to hear again

The single word that will make your heart stop beating with a snap

The word that will change your future and make your present a living torture

"Yes" he finally said the word

"B-but h-how" my dad asked, his hands shaking

"Meninges wasn't the only thing inside her body. We found some sort of toxic virus that she had enhaled, and because of that it spred throughout her body within seconds" the doctor explained and excused himself to give us space

Dad put his hands at his face then began to sob hard, I hugged him and told him that everything was okay

Or wished it was okay

"I-i think I need to see her once more" my dad said in betweeb sobs

"Can you handle it" I asked him and recieved a 'yes'

Dad went inside the horrid room and I saw Ethan moving closer and closer to me

"Val... I heard the news, is everything going to be fine?" Ethan looked into my eyes to find what was in it.

Tears

Tears are what he found in my eyes

Tears that couldn't help but fall endlessly

"Is everything going to be fine? Do you... Do you even think its going to be?!" I shouted, then I suddenly fell into his arms because of the weight of sadness that I couldn't possibly carry

"Let it all out, all of it. The world is cruel for both of us" he patted my back to comfort me

"S-she didn't even say goodbye to m-me. I didn't even get the c-chance to say how much I l-love her" I cried onto his embrace

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Another victim of dedos. Was it too soon tho? I think it is but that's why I love it *evil laugh*

Late warning: on the following chapters you will read a lot of dying and crying and drama stuff

But! What will happen to Val in the next chapter/s. How will she handle this painful task without a mother

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