Loved and Wanted

"I'm just glad your here."

HAS IT REALLY BEEN A MONTH SINCE I'VE UPDATED OH MY GUYS IM SO SO SORRY :'(

Buuut , i have a BIG surprise for you at the end c;

Nicoles P.O.V

"No.. no this isn't real." i clenched my head in my hands, he KILLED HIMSELF, HE'S NOT SUPPOSED TO BE HERE.

What's happening ? am i still dreaming ? i looked at Harry with tearful eyes, begging him for some kind of explaination.

"Well.." Harry rubbed the back of his neck, "This is your Father Nicole, he's alive." he smiled. But I didnt.

"YOU BASTARD!" i screamed, jumping from the bed, unhooking all attached wires. Harry lunged toward me holding me back as my father bolted back against the door. "YOU REALLY MADE ME BELIEVE YOU WERE FUCKING DEAD!" I screamed, sobbing hysterically as well.

Harry pushed me back unto the bed, i was too weak to fight him back. He gently pushed my head down as he softly cooed. I was still crying like an idiot, but who wouldn't be at a situation like this!

"Nicole-" my father started to speak.

"No, just.. no!" i shook my head, "I know i should be excited to see you.. but.. i just can't." i spoke in a low voice. "You ruined me," i cried, "You literally fucking ruined me."

"Baby, just let him explain." Harry hovered over me, fuck i missed him.

I remained silent, the only sound to be heard was the soft pitter patter of the tiny birds feet, and my harsh breathing. I'm so attached in my Father i had forgotten to ask Harry how he found me or if he's okay.

"I don't know what to think.. or believe anymore.." i sniffled, rolling over to my other side, i didn't want to be seen like this.

"Just.. please give me some time. Go out there with my-" my mum. I froze, it was her deadline in a matter of days, maybe even hours. "My mum! were is she?!" i panicked, sitting straight up in the bed.

"Shes fine, why? whats wrong?" my Father spoke, but i ignored him.

"Harry. It's her deadline soon.. is she okay?" i asked, gripping Harry's forearm.

"Deadline?" my Father cut in. Shit, he doesn't know.

"Uh.. yeah." i said, not wanting to speak with him. The sound of his long lost voice makes me wanna break down again.

"What are you guys talking about?" he raised his voice, i looked at Harry and back at him. "Just go get her, will you? We'll explain then." i said, he huffed and nodded, leaving the room.

I stared at the wall, forcing the tears back. "Nicole? baby?" Harry's soft reassuring voice spoke. When i didn't respond he finally nudged my chin up to look at him. "Talk to me." he whispered.

Tears spilled from my red and irritated eyes, "He's here, he's alive, its everything i've ever wanted.. but I'm just not satisfied. Everything is supposed to be perfect again, but its not." i stuffed my face in my hands.

"Baby, just let him explain everything first." he rubbed circles on the back of my hand. "Look at me," i refused.

"Look at me," he said more demanding, but i still refused to.

"I warned you." he said, before lifting me up and over his shoulder, i screamed at the sudden change. "Put me down!" i laughed, slapping his bum, he squeaked but remained a tight grip on me. "Sorry! No can dooo!" he cooed. I laughed so hard to the point of tears.

"Harry!" I slapped his bum again as he ran down the halls, "Oh my god!" i laughed, kicking as well.

"Letss goooo!" god i love the playful Harry. He zoomed down the hallway, screaming random things like mammaries. "My mum is supposed to be in the room any time!" i reminded him. He laughed and said 'I Know!' before quickly turning the corner.