"I've been pushed around my whole life. I'm not gonna let it happen anymore. I've got you. and you've got me. right?" my mom said.
"Right." I agreed
Sunday. my mom and my stepdad were fighting.. I was in my room. hearing everything, crying. My mother Said she was gonna shut down.... shut down because of him. He yelled at her to go the fuck ahead... Who does that.. after everything calmed down because my mom went upstairs and my stepdad went out to the shop. I went upstairs and knocked on her door and waited. she sniffled and opened by the door. I didn't say a word. I hugged her and she said "I love you." and I said "I love you too." the rest of the day she wasn't as bright and bubbly as she usually is... she carries a burden. I fear my mum suffers from depression.... she cries herself to sleep at night.. I recently found that out. my sister moved out to live with her boyfriend last two weekends ago.. I never realized how sad my mother was... I just.. I don't know I guess no one really expects their mom to be sad.. I just.. I can't handle... this pressure. if I killed myself not only would my friends be extremely sad but she would. I didn't know she cared so much.. she's been so far up my stepdads butt... I just figured.. she didn't care.. but she does.. she really does..
