My Songs

Ocean Waves

(Verse 1)
Should I just give up now
I have no purpose anyway
I'll never live up to your expectations the same way
Or the way you want me to be
You always feed me positivity
But that only makes me dwell in my insecurities
And I stare at them blindingly
I feel no use anymore
Why am I even doing it
It feels like no matter what, I'm never gonna be as good as you expect
Even behind those beautiful lies that cover up the ugly truth
It's always gonna be her that's always right for you

(Chorus)
I dont even know anymore
I already have one foot out the door
I'm lost in this forgotten and unknown world
Where I am no longer just an ordinary girl
Where darkness is your friend, and clarity is your enemy
Where time comes to an end, and you change more than anything
Im losing myself, and I cannot be saved
Theres no more room left for me underneath these strong ocean waves

(Verse 2)
Theres always room to grow
Your growth over time will show
That's what you always say
All this time
Ive been trying to change  myself
But I keep falling astray
Trying to be someone I'm not
Just to at least catch your attention
But nothing has paid off
It's not fair
Because its always her
And never me
No one else even bothers to ask about me
It's always her
Yeah shes better
But dont leave me out
I feel like I have to think like her just to get some dignity

(Chorus)
I dont even know anymore
I already have one foot out the door
I'm lost in this forgotten and unknown world
Where I am no longer just an ordinary girl
Where darkness is your friend, and clarity is your enemy
Where time comes to an end, and you change more than anything
Im losing myself, and I cannot be saved
Theres no more room left for me underneath these strong waves

(Bridge)
Does anyone even care about me
I've been trying so hard to change who I am for you
So you all can see that i at least have some talent and youth
Because right now
I feel like I'm not even talented
I feel like I wasted the many years I  had spent
On writing this
Wasting My energy
My effort
Like it was all for nothing
What even am I?
Who am I?
Have I turned into something?

(Chorus)
I dont even know anymore
I already have one foot out the door
I'm lost in this forgotten and unknown world
Where I am no longer just an ordinary girl
Where darkness is your friend, and clarity is your enemy
Where time comes to an end, and you change more than anything
Im losing myself, and I cannot be saved
Th eres no more room left for me underneath these strong waves

(End of Song)

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I wrote this song based on how I feel in the current situation I'm in, and I just feel like the undersog, and like no ine actually cares about me. I know they so care and think I'm awesome, but I just dont feel it. And it's always her who gets the praise, and I never get any. That's my sob story of the day haha

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Published March 30, 2017