Walk Away ✔

Wakas

Wakas

"Nagsalita ang mahilig sa one night! May masasabi ka, Raf?"

Kanina pa tumatalak nang walang patutunguhan ang pinsan ko. He's denying that one-night stand is not his style. I wanted to hit him with my fist because of that denial and disagreement.

"Azi, kapag may nalaman akong babaeng naikam---"

"Dame, ano ka ba naman, parang di tayo pareho ng taste!"

Namutla ang kapatid ko sa sinabi ni Azi. Natawa naman kami nina Jos at Azi dahil sa reaksyon niya. We're in their turf and Dame's wife, Eba, is here with us. Xian, their child, was taking an afternoon nap in their room. Nagkatinginan pa ang mag-asawa. Nang tinaasan ng kilay ni Eba si Dame ay awtomatikong pumulupot ang braso ng kapatid ko sa baywang niya. He whispered something and she nodded slowly. He glared at us while he's still whispering something to his wife.

"Umuwi na nga kayo," Dame growled.

"Sorry naman, Eba. Hindi kasi ako sanay kay Dame na---" Binatukan ni Jos si Azi. "Wala nang nightlife," pagtutuloy niya kaya si Dame na mismo ang sumapak sa kanya.

"Kilala ko naman si Dame eh. I didn't marry him out of nothing," Eba announced.

O-fucking-kay, Azi, Jos and I cursed at that statement. Dame started kissing the neck of her wife. We're out.

I left her there crying and I didn't know that I also left my fucked up heart there. Hindi ko alam kung kinuha niya iyon pero alam kong kinuha niya iyon. She should've held it. Dapat lang niyang angkinin iyon dahil sa kanya ako.

Then why did you leave her, Rafael?

I'm in love with her. It wasn't a love at first sight. It was the second time. I saw her taking a glimpse on my direction when I'm busy doing my researches. Ramdam ko iyon at alam kong hindi niya alam.

I'm in love with her the moment she called my name when I was at the shoreline. She talked to me like we've known for years. I talked less. I was suppressing myself not to grab her on her waist and kiss her mouth. I wanted to get her. I wanted to claim her mine. Mark her mine.

I'm in love with her even she didn't tell me about how she lost her viriginity. I supposed it's her ex. Jacob Buenaventura. I'm not stupid. I asked Damon how to trace a fucking person. I did. I fucking search for that guy who made Felicity drown in total sadness. And knowing that guy is happy with his ex, I clenched my jaw.

She loves you, Raf.

"You're not going to find her?" 

"Raf, I think you should. You must before it's too late."

"I know. Hindi ko lang malaman kung anong gagawin ko sakaling nagkaharap na kami."

"Bruh, I have her address," Carlitos, my brother, said.

"How did you know?"

"It's not important anymore," agarang sagot ni Dame saka ako pinilit na puntahan nga si Felicity. And fuck, Fel's here in CDO!

Seeing her moved on will break me. Why did I walk away? I'm ready to give myself up--- my time, my money, my life and my love.

She smiled at me when we met at the restaurant. Gustong gusto ko siyang yakapin non pero gusto kong makasigurado. Sa akin pa rin ba siya?

"I will live in America with my husband."

I blinked thrice the moment I heard the word husband. I nearly stood up just because it fcvking hurt my ego and myself and my love for her. I felt defeated and betrayed. Ganoon ba kabilis para makahanap siya ng iba? Isa pa, nagpatali siya! That was supposed to be me who vowed at that altar and in front of the people. I should be the one crying because I'm marrying the love of my life. I should be the happiest man alive. I love her.