Jealous. L.H

chapter 10

(Ik its not 1Ds song, but i like it better when they sing it so,)

Its been a week and I refuse to go home. To many memories. To much love, thats empty now. Lukes been trying really hard to support me, and make me feel better, but its not working to well, considering all i do is cry. Todays the funeral for my mother and im wearing a black dress that stops above my knees, has lace sleeves, and flows from the waist down. Im wearing black wedges to match and Lukes just wearing a black suit. "You ready?" Luke says as i finish curling my hair and doing my makeup. I nod slightly and grab the note ive prepared for the speech.

When we arrive, everyone has sypathetic smiles that make me want to barf because theyre so fake. Someone pokes my shoulder and I turn around to see my older brother, Charlie. I give him a hug and we tell eachother to stay strong. I nod at him and walk to the ceremony, and almost break down seeing my mums coffin sitting at the end of the isle. Luke puts his hand on my back and slightly pushes me to the podium, kissing my forehead, and sitting down next to his parents. I unfold the paper and run it over, enentually just tossing it and i begin to speak. (Im putting it in italics so you understand what her speech is ok ok) "Hello, everyone... Im Emma Carter. Some of you know me, some maybe not but ive prepared a little something for you. So um.. my mother was a beautiful, wise, woman but still young at heart, atleast thats what she believed. I remember the first day she introduced me to her coworkers, she was so excited and everytime someone new met me, her face would light up and she'd ramble on, and on about me, until the day ended. My mother was very... patient, you could say. From dealing with my first performance, and trying to teach me how to play guitar, or even just teaching me where dishes go. If you've made it up to heaven mom, im sorry this is the worst speech ive ever spoken in my life," half-hearted laughs echo eachother and I continue, "I wish we had all the time to put all of our memories into this speech, but my brain wont comprehend that youre gone, so maybe next time. Actually nevermind. Anyways, My mother also loved music, and we always sang this together,after she discovered it at the 1D concert, so mom, if youre listening, this ones for you, my mother, and my bestfriend,"  I walk to the guitar, and start to play the intro.

"Let's dance in style,
Let's dance for a while,
Heaven can wait, we're only watching the skies,
Hoping for the best but expecting the worst,
Are you gonna drop the bomb or not?

Let us die young or let us live forever,
We don't have the power but we never say never,
Sitting in a sandpit,
Life is a short trip,
The music's for the sad man.

Forever young,
I wanna be
Forever young.
Do you really wanna live forever,
Forever,
Forever young?

Some are like water, some are like the heat,
Some are a melody and some are the beat,
But sooner or later they all will be gone,
Why don't they stay young?

It's hard to get old without a cause,
I don't want to perish like a fading horse,
Youth is like diamonds in the sun,
And diamonds are forever.

Forever young,
I wanna be
Forever young.
Do you really wanna live forever,
Forever
Or never?
Forever young,
I wanna be
Forever young (forever).
Do you really wanna live forever,
Forever
Or never?

So many adventures couldn't happen today,
So many songs we forgot to play,
So many dreams are swinging out of the blue,
We let 'em come true.

Forever young,
I wanna be
Forever young.
Do you really wanna live forever,
Forever
Or never?

Forever young,
I wanna be
Forever young.
Do you really wanna live forever,
Forever
Or never?
Forever young,
I wanna be
Forever young (forever).
Do you really wanna live forever (forever),
Forever
Or never?
Forever young,
I wanna be
Forever young (forever).
Do you really wanna live forever (forever),
Forever (forever),
Forever young," I finish and stand up, tears pouring down my face, along with more than half of everyone else.
I walk back to my seat, next to Luke and my father. They both hold my hand and we finish the rest of the ceremony like that, me in the middle, and the two greatest guys in my life beside me, holding my hand. Behind us are Ashton, Calum, and Michael, and Calum rubs my shoulders, while resting his chin on my head. I look up at the sky and see a rainbow peeking out from the storm earlier and I smile, hey Momma.

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Thus wus su sud. Ugh omg  but literally im so sad momma Carters dead. Ik im the writer but i had to do it im sowwy. (866 words) kinda proof read not rlly