Broken

I'm really not ok

I woke up to the sound of my annoying alarm clock, as I hit the button. I looked to see if Dylan was anywhere to be found but he wasn't. I smelled the trapped smell of breakfast in my room. I walked in the kitchen and felt Dylan grab my waist and give me a big kiss on the cheek. After we ate the delicious breakfast he made, we layed in my bed. His breakfast was actually really delicious. As we layed in the bed, he stroked his hands gently through my short soft hair. Then he placed his hand under my chin and lifted it up, so that my lips were aligned with his. He softly gave me a quick kiss on the lips. I felt better from all the bad that has happened. He gazed into my soft eyes, which were red and slightly puffy at the time, from how I've been crying. I then looked down at my scars and noticed that I'm just a worthless depressed teenager who has no friends and no life. I got up and quickly sprinted to the bathroom. I slammed the door and sat, with my knees to my chin, rocking back and forth. He quickly slung open the door and grabbed me. He held me tightly in his arms, because he already knew what this whole "scene" was about. He carried me, bridal style to my bed and just held me, there in his arms. He gently kissed my forehead and told me he loved me. Those were the last things that happened before I let sleep take over.

I woke up, still lying in his arms. I check the time and it was 10:58pm. I decided to stay up the rest of the night. I got a giant bowl of ice cream and grabbed the remote to watch Netflix. Dylan then woke up and grabbed my waist. There was a big thunder storm, which I love and Dylan hates. Dylan started fake whining and pouting. So I got him some chips and a soda to relax.(😂) I then went to snuggle with him. I cupped his cheeks with my hand and gave him a kiss which seemed to sooth him down from his "panic attack." Then out of no where the power went out. I believe he was really scared. So I wrapped my arms around his neck and he wrapped his around my waist and we layed in bed. I looked back over at the clock and it was now 2:00am. The storm finally stopped after Dylan fell asleep again. I didn't want to wake him so I gently pulled the cover over him and sat him a glass of water in case he needed it. Then I took my headphones and blasted the song "Disenchanted" by MCR(LISTEN TO IT). I started singing to myself. And then came the tears.

*Dream*

Out of nowhere I felt a sharp pain in my chest, I rubbed my face and noticed I was crying. I looked around and I was at a hospital. I remember nothing. I see a group of people standing around me, I don't know who any of them are. I felt someone rub the top of my head. I looked at him, his eyes were warm and soft. But they was also red and puffy. He had tears streaming down his face, and he had these dark black rings around his eyes. He was very pale and looked as if he hasn't slept for a week.

*end of dream*

I woke up scared to death but then I heard Dylan singing "Disenchanted"....he must've heard the song because I had it on replay and my headphones came unattached.(Same))LISTEN TO THE SONG NOW PLEASE

Well I was there on the day

They sold the cause for the queen,

And when the lights all went out

We watched our lives on the screen

I hate the ending myself,

But it started with an alright scene

It was the roar of the crowd

That gave me heartache to sing

It was a lie when they smiled

And said, you won't feel a thing

And as we ran from the cops

We laughed so hard it would sting

Yeah yeah, oh

If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)

How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)

Now will it matter after I'm gone?

Because you never learn a goddamn thing

You're just a sad song with nothing to say

About a life long wait for a hospital stay

And if you think that I'm wrong,

This never meant nothing to ya

*i joined in*I spent my high school career

Spit on and shoved to agree

So I could watch all my heroes

Sell a car on TV

Bring out the old guillotine

We'll show 'em what we all mean

Yeah yeah, oh

If I'm so wrong (so wrong, so wrong)

How can you listen all night long? (night long, night long)

Now will it matter long after I'm gone?

Because you never learn a goddamn thing

You're just a sad song with nothing to say

About a life long wait for a hospital stay

And if you think that I'm wrong,

This never meant nothing to ya

So go, go away, just go, run away

But where did you run to, and where did you hide?

Go find another way, price you pay

Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa

You're just a sad song with nothing to say

About a life long wait for a hospital stay

And if you think that I'm wrong,

This never meant nothing to ya

You're just a sad song with nothing to say

About a life long wait for a hospital stay

And if you think that I'm wrong,

This never meant nothing to ya

At all, at all, at all, at all

I heard his sweet and soft voice. All my pain went away....but I'm really not okay