Broken

Normal?

I just got out the hospital and I'm honestly feeling great now that I'm with Dylan. He drove me home and gave me a small tour of the house. I really liked it, and honestly he was a great designer. He grabbed us a snack and turned on the tv. After awhile, I felt my phone vibrating in my pocket. I pulled it out as I seen all the notifications from my friends. It was text messages, mainly from Maggie. I quickly called her, and we talked for a bit. After around 30 minutes, I got sleepy. I checked the clock and it was 10:37pm. I went to the bathroom to take a shower. I let the drops of water run all over my skin before I finally began to wash off. Then I got out and brushed my teeth. I put on some pjs and finished preparing for bed. After I was done, I walked to the bed, feeling the cold ground on my feet. I got in and slid under the covers making room for myself next to Dylan. He planted a small kiss and my forehead. "I love you, pickles." He said. He used to call me that when we were younger. "I love you more, Dills." I said. (See what I done there? 😏) i looked up to see his lips curled forming in to a smile. That's the last thing I saw before I went to sleep.

I woke up to see nobody in the room. I walked around the house, barely knowing where I was going. Dylan was nowhere to be found. I went back to my room, crying and hyperventilating of the thought of being alone. "What if he hates me?" "What if he never comes back?" "What if he- before I could finish my phone began to ring. I immediately picked up.

Olivia-he...hello (in a sad tone)

Dylan- hey babe I was wondering if- wait have you been crying???

Olivia-no

Dylan:yes you have

Olivia:Then why'd you ask

Dylan: Why?

Olivia: I thought you'd left me

Dylan: JUST BECAUSE-

He hung up.

I knew it. He doesn't like me. I'm just a screw up. Suddenly I remebered my stash of sharp stuff, I had in a small box. But I didn't bother to get it because I needed to stop. I packed my clothes and left a note before I left.

Dear Dills,

I know you're probably really mad at me. Just know I really love you. Ok? I cause you too much stress and you shouldn't have to worry about me. I decided I was going to stay somewhere else until we figure things out. I didn't want to risk being alone, because ya know. Well, just know I love you. And you shouldn't have to baby me. I'm an adult and I have to learn to act like one. This may seem childish but it's for the best. If you want a break, I understand. Anyways, give me a call....or don't. I'm gonna miss you but we'll be back. I don't know what I'll do, or where I'll go. Let's just hope this isn't goodbye

xxOliviaxx

I got in my car, as my phone buzzed. I seen all these angry messages from Dylan. I started to cry unbearably. I had makeup all over my face but I really didn't care. I decided I should stop driving. So I parked at the closet store and walked in, I needed a snack anyways. The cashier looked around my age. He gave me a slight smile. 

"Hi, how are you today" he asked

"Okay,I guess" lying knowing I wasn't okay

"Hun, if you're crying over some f'boy or a stuck up guy, then he's doesn't deserve you." He said.

"Thanks, I needed that" I gave a small smile.

"You wouldn't want to come and hang would you?" He asked

"Sure" I said changing my sad tone to a happier one.

"Okay, I get off at 2. Meet me at the park."  

We exchanged numbers and I went back home. I got through on some nicer clothes(above) and before I could wash my face, Dylan walked in and his face was really red. He began to yell. "Where are you going?" He asked with an angry tone. "I'm staying with a friend" I said shyly. "Well I got home before you, and I read your note. Do you think I would leave you in this position of your life? No! And the fact that you do, makes me mad. Not everything revolves around you, just because you're  crazy and suicidal!" He yelled. I turned around so my face was close to his. I  felt his warm breath on mine as tears slipped down my face. "I'm..I'm sorry. I didn't mean it" he whispered. "But you did" I said as I walked past. "I'm breaking up with you" I cried as I walked out the door. I drove to the park and waited for that guy. He pulls up and sits on the swing next to me. This was our conversation...

Guy-Hey hun. Are you better?

Me-No. we just broke up. 

Guy- aww, come here babe. He said as he gave me a hug.

We layed in the grass together as we talked. "Okay well, since we don't even know each other's name, tell me 15 things about you and I'll do the same." I challenged. "Okay" he said sassily

Guys facts: My name is Colby. I'm 19. I have 1 sister. I'm from Ohio. I'm adopted. My favorite color is gray. My birthday is May 5th. My favorite song is: The Sharpest Of Our Lives. My favorite band is: Twenty Øne Piløts. I love pandas. I have depression and anxiety. My middle name is Marshall. I'm single as a Pringle. I play guitar. I'm love YouTube. And I'm....gay

"Aw, you're such a sweet person and we have a lot in common." I said

"You don't think I'm a loser?" He said shyly

"Of course not. Well my turn." I said 

My facts: my name is Olivia but I go by Liv. I'm also 19. I have 3 siblings. I'm from Virginia. My parents were divorced but were secretly seeing each other. My favorite color is black. My birthday is June 30. My favorite song is: Disenchanted. I love My Chemical Romance. I like dolphins. I also have depression and anxiety and I've had to go to the hospital for suicide watch. My middle name is Laine. I'm now single. I play volleyball. I like Netflix. And I happen to have a new bestfriend named Colby. 

"Awh, thanks hun. Now let's go to my place and have a sleepover." He said

"Okay!" I said.

We spent the rest of the night having fun. He let me do his nails and makeup. Lol. And we fell asleep on each other. For once, I was happy.

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I took some characters out from the cast chapter and I'm making another cast chapter. Thanks for getting me to 230 reads. I love you all!!!! Stay alive frens |-/