Broken

Hard Times

*1 month later*

I've been staying at Colby's and I must admit I'm the happiest I've ever been. I graduated early and now taking a break from school. I decided and take a ride just to embrace how beautiful the world is. I stopped when i noticed this really cool abandoned building. It had graffiti all over the walls. I decided to walk in and maybe take some pictures. As i walked in i noticed crying. I dont really believe much when it comes to paranormal things. So i walked around until the noises got louder. I finally came to a stop when i seen a guy sitting in a corner. He lifted his head as i noticed his beautiful hazel green eyes, warm smile, his black emo fringe, and his perfectly shaped nose. i walked over and put my hand out to help him up. he gladly took the offer, and pulled himself up. he wiped his tears away and put on a fake smile. his sleeves were pushed up and he had scars on his wrists. he quickly noticed me checking him out and tugged his sleeve until it came down. 

guy: um...hi. is there something i can help you with?

me: no. i just cam here to get away from things. if you dont mind, i want to ask why youre crying?

guy: well, ive been getting bullied for a while now, my parents just got arrested and taken to jail for murder, and i have no friends.

me: awh, im sorry. i know we just met but we can go hang out for the day and you can consider me your friend. i have a bestfriend/room mate and his boyfriend is always at the house. so i mainly hang with my friends Jordan, Jade, Joey, and Trisha. but they recently stopped talking to me for unknown reasons. but my name is Olivia.

guy: my name is Joshua but i go by Josh

well me and josh go to the mall and we stop by spencers to buy new tapers, and then we get matching tshirts from hottopic. we went back to his house and hung out for awhile and talked about our life. i got to admit he was really cute, but im still getting over dylan. then comes up the serious conversations. we talk about our depression/selfharm/suicide stories. it seems like we have so much in common. i go through my instagram and see dylan has already gotten a new girlfriend. why am i still following him??? i quickly unfollow him and decided to take some really cute pictures of me and Josh. he kissed my cheek for one and my cheeks turned blood red. it was so obvious.

*1 month later*

so me and josh have gotten really close lately, and colby and his boyfriend got a house in miami so colby let me have his old one. he comes to visit me alot and its really sweet. me and josh dyed our hair. i have aqua hair while he has a yellowish greenish hair color. i also have gotten more tattoos. 

JOSH POV

ive really grown feeling for Olivia and weve gotten super close. i decided i was gonna ask her if she wanted to be my girlfriend. i hope its not too soon because i know about her past relationship, but i would never hurt her, and thats a swear upon my life. 

i pulled up to her house as i grab the black roses, a giant teddy bear, and some things from hottopic. i knocked on her door, and as soon as she saw me her jaw dropped. Olivia, i know things have been rough but i want to make it better. wanna be my girlfriend? i said shyly. she was really shocked but nodded once she came to reality of what just happened. tears streamed down her rosy cheeks as she jumped into my arms.

*8 months later* sorry for the large skip

weve been going 8 months strong and im really proud of what our relationship has become. it makes me really happy to know that i have someone there for me.

Olivias pov

me and josh have been happily dating for 8 months and i never thought life could be so good. until one day i started feeling really dizzy. my head was spinning and i saw josh walk through to help me gain my balance which didnt work. he said my name, which echoed through my ears. the final words i heard before i blacked out were "i love you"

*2 weeks later*

POSSIBLY TRIGGERING

i finally fluttered my eyes open as i heard mumbling from the nurses in the other rooms. Joshie? he walked over and yelled "SHES AWAKE" as nurses rushed in they was talking about all this medical stuff i didnt understand until i heard the word "dying" . I burst into tears as i looked at josh and seen him do the same. "honey dont worry, its a half chance it'll happen , and you're with the best doctor , but you'll need surgery . you need to decide today so we can do it fast. the nurse walked out and me and Josh agreed that the best thing to do was go through with the surgery. i got put on my medication and they started the procedure. 

*7 months later* 

yes! im alive  and im so blessed. i go to the hospital and take toys to small sick patients every chance i get. which is about twice a week. me and Josh are doing great and things are back to normal. i truly believe the hard times are over.

it was 9pm so my and josh got in the bed as i curled into a ball and he wrapped around me. ive been 1 year clean from cutting and used scar cream and have no scars except a few on my wrists. i looked up at josh and smiled. "why are you looking at me creep?" I said sarcastically. "because i love you" he said. well i happen to love you more., i said as he planted a kiss on my head and drifted off to sleep.

goodnight

hi its the author and ive decided to change the title. it will now be Would You Love An Emo, and i will be editing the story to take some of the nerdy parts out. thank you for all the support and ily.