Am I Really Alive

Heartbreak

Now this is a message from my heart ,

On 12th March,

 I found out that my boyfriend was cheating on me with two other  girls but on that morning  he said to me

 'I think we should break up '

 and later that morning my  mother took my phone cuz I was in floods of tears cuz of what he was saying to me so mother asked the one question I wanted  to ask

 ' are you with someone or want to go out with someone else ' 

my mother give my phone and said

 'do you want to sent it  ' 

I click send . to took him 2 minutes to reply he said

 'no' 

so I said

 'we will take a break'.

On the 13th March

 my best mate showed me a post from a girl saying

 ' hey baby'

 with the kiss emoji so when I got home I looked on his Facebook profile and this girl said

 'wow nearly three months together .

then I lost it so I posted a comment on that post saying 

'nice well I have be with him for a nearly year ' 

after I sent that he sent me a message saying 

' we should break up ' 

but he knew to much about my self harm and wanting to kill myself

The day of my mother birthday he started messaging me saying that the relationship was a crappy joke and i cut myself  and I said to he

 ' I will go and kill myself '

 I could not face the world all I wanted to do was stay at home and cry my eyes out and to this day I still blame myself for the lost for that boyfriend

he was my everything. i told him all my dreams and hopes

Rinxharux stay strong and brave
Online grooming is not nice place to be In
I have made a few mistakes in my life and I have learnt by my mistakes that I will never do it again !!!
I hope to many of you this will never happen to you