I fucked up.
I lost her.
One of my friends left all because I am an idiot.
I'm sorry CayleeAnne.
I walked into home room, trying to ignore the voices in my head. I was scrolling through tumblr when I found a funny meme about Tøp. I turned to CayleeAnne.
"Pssss.... CayleeAnne look" I whispered.
"Oh my God Abi you seriously need to shut the fuck up, you have done nothing except act like a bitch lately" She spit.
I was completely and utterly lost. I hadn't talked to her since Saturday so I didn't understand what she was saying. It all happened so fast, I didn't know what to do.
"W-what d-did I do?" I questioned on the verge of tears.
She simply scoffed and turned around.
How do I manage to loose one of the few people who give me genuine happiness. Does anyone actually like me or am I actually just a complete bitch. I don't understand. I don't want to understand. I know how controlling I can get. How annoying and possessive I can be. I. Just. Can't. I can't do it anymore.
Why do I fuck every positive thing in my life up. Why do I think that I can be happy.
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