This summer was a roller coaster. My girlfriend and I took a break, but got back together. I went to an amusement park almost every week. I rode on my first roller coasters, and loved it. I meet new, amazing friends. I hung out with Kaia more. I got to chill with Rachael, James, Samuel, Cameron, and Cam's dog everyday for like a week. I got to see Heather. On the Fourth of July I had a party in Glendale with Nico, Terry, and the rest of my family.
Everything was good for a while but, on July 6th I got a concussion. I kept getting violent mood swings. I tried to be nice but it was hard. I didn't really want to see anyone so I basically stayed away for everyone for a long time. It wasn't long until I became depressed again. I wouldn't eat and I was always mad.
July 22 came, and I was finally happy again. I hung out with Rachael and CayleeAnne for the first time in a long time. We went out to the train tracks. We also went out and smoked, it hurt, but it was fun. I just wanted to try Chinese cigarettes. My chest hurt the next couple of days.
July 23- July 28 I was at summer camp. I was anxious at first because they almost put me in a cabin with strangers. Lexey (Brooke's cousin) and I had a bonding moment in chapel. She is a furry? My cabin consisted of: Lexey, Brooke, Kami, Jada, Adorea, Christine, Chelsea, Liz, and Emily. On the second day my cabin was out on the pink team, the Flame-ingos. Our flamingos name is Ringo. We played water games. Lexey went home. And my whole cabin kinda split. On the third day we went to Raystown Lake, and after, Heather arrived (Hope and Ruthanne were in Georgia) I bonded with Kami (we were both left out) and I "cried" at chapel. The fourth day, we went back to Raystown and I was with Heather, Kami, and Liz the whole time. Liz and I got into an argument. On the fifth day, I went on a boat ride with Heather and Liz and then went to the resort. On the way there I talked to Noelle and Jordan (2 different rides) and I was with the same people. On the last day, we woke up early, had a goodbye party, and said farewell, I miss everything about camp, deeply.
I went to Kaia's birthday party two days later (with ringo) and hung out with Andy, Kaia, CeCe, and Leah. I went and hung with Kaia, CeCe, and Em the next day. The day after, I picked up CayleeAnne and Emma. We hung out and listened to Crash Bandicoot memes. Later, Emma left and Kami came, we looked at old pictures.
Six days after that Liz, CayleeAnne and I hung out at her house with the new kittens that later died. The next four days CayleeAnne, Kami and I hung out and went on walks. Then Rachael, CayleeAnne and I made a Bi cake. We stayed up until 12 in the afternoon and said farewell to Krystina.
On Agust 14, Liz, Rachael, CayleeAnne, and I reunited and hung out. We all got stoned and Gaia came too. We walked to Sheetz at like 11 at night. Two days later I hung out with Emma and CayleeAnne. It wasn't until today the 18, that I stopped hanging out with Emma. I got a book of poems today.
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Heart Without a Beat
RandomI don't know what changed, why I thought I was safe. Was it the changing of schools? Maybe it was the "friends" I had made. All I do anymore is plaster on that fake smile that I had thought I could put away forever. Boy, was I wrong. (This is writte...
