Jaebum started his 3rd year in college and he was on his way to his dorm, he decided to ride the subway. Jaebum was contented with what he had at the moment, a guy named Jackson started being friends with him and Jinyoung (the guy was pretty loud but he was cool).
He didn't understand why the guy was sure about being friends with them but he's been helping him in fights and that was a good thing for him. As he was thinking about the new friendship he has formed, a certain brown-haired guy started walking to him.
The boy looked like he was two years younger than him, he was wearing a snapback, a huge shirt and shorts. He looked really shy, like he was forced to go near Jaebum. The boy kept glancing at some guys at the left side of the subway train, probably begging them not to let him do it.
"Do you have something to say or?" Jaebum said as he saw the boy opening and closing his mouth. The boy looked embarassed which made Jaebum smile for some reason.
"May I sing you a song?" the boy said. Jaebum was stunned, he wasn't sure what to say because of the sudden question. He slowly nodded at the boy which made the boy smile brightly. It was so bright that Jaebum felt like people would be blinded because of how bright the boy's smile was.
The boy sang so beautifully, like his voice was made for singing any song Jaebum wanted. He felt hot liquid flowing from his heart, it was an emotion he has never felt before. The boy had his eyes closed while singing his heart out, while Jaebum stared at him like he was the most beautiful person in the world.
"What's your name?" he asked as the boy stopped singing. The boy have him a questioning look and bowed, not minding what the older one said. The boy left without saying another word and was welcomed by the other ones while laughing and patting his back.
Jaebum's eyes were stuck on the boy, he didn't want to but his eyes just kept on going to the boy. As days went on, he kept on thinking of the boy. If he was studying in their university, what course he was taking and what year. Then one day, he finally saw the boy.
He was talking to two freshmen, one had a choker on and one's hair was so brown that he looked like a coconut head. They looked familiar and he'd often hear their names but it was too different for him to remember, he barely remembers Jackson's name for heaven's sake.
That's why, when he found a way to be close with the boy named Youngjae he couldn't let it pass. He would always look at the younger one lovingly, because he believed that it was what the boy deserved. Youngjae deserved a look full of love. But now, he was looking at Youngjae with so much hurt.
The boys decided to go to a theme park to make Jaebum feel better. It was a day full of laughter because of the jokes they cracked. But while they were lining up for the ferris wheel, they saw something that they knew would ruin the happiness Jaebum had the whole day.
"Hyung, maybe it's not what it looks like." Bambam immediately said as they noticed Jaebum's breath quickening. Jaebum was hurt, confused and angry all at the same time. He has considered the idea that Youngjae could have someone else but not him.
"Maybe they're just friends or something. Maybe he just wants to know more about you so he's asking Youngjae stuff." Mark explained as he kept his arm on the other's shoulder. They were panicking but they couldn't show it, it would just add to the chaos.
"Which Youngjae's asking which Youngjae?" Yugyeom asked. The others glared at him for making a joke like that, it obviously wasn't the right time.
"Let's just ignore them." Jinyoung said but it was too late because Jaebum suddenly ran to the two. The other boys were alarmed and followed him, not knowing what to actually do. Jaebum grabbed his Youngjae's hand which shocked the younger one but he wasn't moved an inch because of the other hand grabbing his other hand.
"Yah Jaebum-ah, why are you so rude? We're having our date, can't you see?" Youngjae said. The other Youngjae though, not his Youngjae. Jaebum couldn't speak, specially when his Youngjae pulled his hand away and went to the other Youngjae's back. Like Youngjae was scared of him, it was painful seeing him like that. Imagine having the person you love the most, being scared of you.
"I don't get you. You don't want to be with me but you also don't want other people to be with me. Can't I be happy?" the guy said with a smirk as the other boys arrived.
"Wow, all of you are here? You guys are finally bonding? Jinyoung said you guys stopped hanging out, I'm actually surprised." he kept on rambling. Bambam and Yugyeom looked at Jinyoung with wide eyes, they were confused as to what was actually happening.
Jaebum didn't know what to believe anymore, everything was confusing at the moment and all he wanted to do was grab his Youngjae away from everyone and talk to him.
"How does it feel seeing the two Youngjae's of your life, holding hands?" he asked Jaebum who was just staring at their hands while shaking his head.
"You're not my Youngjae. Choi Youngjae is the only Youngjae for me. I can't even stand saying your name because I feel like it would be an insult to all Youngjae's who are not as disgusting as you." Jaebum said, full of disgust. He would always refer to him as "that guy" or "the guy" because "Youngjae" was a pretty special name for him and knowing that a guy as sickening as the one standing in front of him has that name too makes him wanna puke.
"Well your Youngjae didn't pick you. He picked me no matter how disgusting or ill you think I am." the guy said as he started laughing like a mad man. He then stared at Jinyoung who was glaring at him, but also looks like he was full of regrets.
"Did you tell your friends yet? Or do you want me to tell them?" he then asked Jinyoung who looked serious. Like he wasn't in the mood to make jokes.
"Your friend is heroic, you know? He sacrificed Youngjae so that all of you could be safe, it was so sweet I almost cried." he continued, smirking because of how Bambam and Yugyeom reacted.
"SHUT.UP." Jaebum said. He was trying hard to contain his anger because God knows what he could've done if he didn't. He was shaking with anger until a hand touched his arm. It was his Youngjae, giving him a pleading look. It felt so surreal for him that one touch could melt all his anger away.
How could someone hurt him and make him feel loved at the same time?
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sunshine: 2jae (little bird series)
Fanfiction"Hyung, what am I to you?" Youngjae asked. "You're my one and only sunshine." Jaebum said. "EWWWWW" Jackson and Bambam said ruining the pair's moment as the other boys laughed.
