Jaebum, Jinyoung and Bambam were all sitting at the bleachers while Yugyeom was pulling Mark to where the 3 were sitting. It was Jackson's first fencing match since the injury and everyone was excited. The boys barely had time for each other, Mark was graduating soon, Jackson focused on getting better, Yugyeom and Bambam became distant, Jinyoung focused on his studies and Jaebum got into more fights. And Youngjae? He was nowhere to be found.
After the night him and Jaebum talked, Youngjae dissapeared. He left a note saying that he'd be at his parents' house and to never call him until he's back so the boys respected his decision. Jaebum was devastated, he wanted to go there but they wouldn't let him. They reasoned out that Youngjae probably needed time to breathe and he knew they were right.
When the match ended, Jackson wanted to celebrate his win but everyone except Mark and Jinyoung, said they were busy. Out of everyone, Mark should've been the busiest since he was graduating soon and Jinyoung always aimed for high grades so he had a reason not to join but still wanted to.
"Fine, just ruin this little friendship we have!" Jackson said as he dragged Mark to a restaurant near the school with Jinyoung following them. He just wanted to celebrate with his friends, but apparently they didn't. Jackson thought he was the one who lost time for them, looks like he was wrong for blaming himself.
The 3 boys look stunned after Jackson yelled at them, they stood awkwardly while gazing at the 3 boys who were walking away from them.
"What happened to us?" Bambam asked as he sat on the pavement. Yugyeom didn't talk, he just looked at his hyungs guiltily. Jaebum couldn't talk either, he didn't even notice that everyone was being distant. He didn't notice how no one visits their dorm anymore, how no one joined him for lunch and how he always got into fights with not one of his friends helping him. All he thought about was when he'll see Youngjae again. He didn't notice that while he was waiting, he was losing the others.
"Who knows." he replied as he sat down beside Bambam, he knew but he didn't want to blame himself. It wasn't his fault that they all decided to ignore each other just because he ignored them.
They heard footsteps and someone's feet being dragged as they finally looked up from the ground. Jinyoung was walking while Mark was dragging Jackson who looked like a little puppy being dragged by his owner somewhere.
"I'm sorry for yelling at you." Jackson said, not looking at anyone in particular. The 3 understood where Jackson was coming from so they just nodded, the air became awkward.
"I saw Youngjae." Jinyoung quickly admitted, which made the 5 look at him. He looked guilty, like he wasn't supposed to tell them but he did. Jaebum quickly walked to Jinyoung and grabbed his shoulders, Yugyeom was going to stop Jaebum but Bambam grabbed his arm.
"Where?!" he asked, full of desperation. Jinyoung promised Youngjae not to tell them, especially him. Jinyoung just stared at his bestfriend, not exactly knowing how to tell him about what's going on with Youngjae. He pushed Jaebum's hands off his shoulder and sat on the pavement.
"He doesn't want to come back, hyung. Besides, our lives are better now. Your stalker hasn't done anything to us since he left, isn't that what you've always wanted? For your friends to be happy and safe?" Jinyoung said while looking down. Of course he didn't want to tell him that but he didn't have a choice, he had to do it.
Jinyoung's words angered Jaebum, he grabbed Jinyoung's shirt to pull him up and punched him. Jackson grabbed Jaebum immediately to stop him but he kept on shoving the younger one away. He was pissed that Jinyoung was saying that their lives were better without Youngjae when it clearly wasn't.
"How dare you fucking say that?! Where the fuck is he?! Tell me, now!" Jaebum angrily said as Yugyeom and Jackson were pulling him away from Jinyoung. He was about to grab the younger one again when Jinyoung muttered words that pissed him off even more AND broke his heart.
"He doesn't love you anymore." Jinyoung said coldly. Everyone was stunned, they couldn't say anything or even move an inch. They couldn't figure out if Jinyoung was acting or if he was telling the truth because his eyes looked as cold as his manner of speaking.
"If he still loves you, he should've come back." he continued, sounding as cold as ever. Jaebum felt like his soul was drifting away from him, he didn't want to believe Jinyoung's words.
"You're lying, he just needs time to breathe." Jaebum said, trying to laugh it all out. He kept on laughing but there were tears in his eyes, he looked desperate.
"Time to breathe? It's been more than a month, hyung! How much more time does he need?! He just doesn't love you anymore, be a grown ass man and accept that." Jinyoung said, rubbing more salt into his wounds. Jaebum couldn't move, he couldn't believe what Jinyoung was saying. He knows Youngjae loved him when he left, now he's not sure if the younger one still does.
He ran away from his friends, straight to their dorm. As he was running, it started raining. He stopped and felt the rain on his body, he didn't know why. He stood still, the rain calmed him down somehow. He felt like the heaven was crying for him or with him, he sat down and started crying even more.
"Youngjae effect, my ass." he said as he remembered Jackson telling him about Jinyoung's theory about the weather and Youngjae.
"Atleast you'll know if he's crying or if he's happy" Jackson told him when they were talking about it. He just shook his head and didn't mind what the younger one said that day. He still finds it stupid, more stupid than him sitting in the rain and crying his eyes out. But there was something more stupid than those things, him staring at a guy with strawberry blonde hair who had his back facing him and thinking it was Youngjae.
The boys didn't move from their position even when the rain started pouring. Mark just simply grabbed a cap from his bag and put it on Jackson's head. The 4 suddenly looked at Jinyoung who covered his eyes with his hands, he looked like he was crying.
"You really are a theatre student, aren't you?" Jackson said as he was comforting Jinyoung. Bambam and Yugyeom looked confused but comforted their hyung as well. It wasn't everyday that Jinyoung just bursts out crying unless he was on stage for a play, so the two were really surprised.
"I'm sorry, i'm sorry Jaebum hyung." Jinyoung muttered over and over again while crying his eyes out. Mark and Jackson had tears in their eyes as well because they understood what Jinyoung was talking about, Yugyeom and Bambam stayed confused.
Youngjae was standing somewhere near the area, crying. He felt sorry that Jinyoung had to do that for him, he should've done it instead. A hand grabbed Youngjae's arm, pulling him away from the scene. He knew he had to follow the man dragging him away as always, but he immediately pulled away when he saw who it was.
"Jaebum hyung?!"
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sunshine: 2jae (little bird series)
Fiksi Penggemar"Hyung, what am I to you?" Youngjae asked. "You're my one and only sunshine." Jaebum said. "EWWWWW" Jackson and Bambam said ruining the pair's moment as the other boys laughed.
