Saving Middle Earth

Say Goodbye

I wake in the morning in his bed. He is still asleep and I watch him trying to remember every line in his face. I cry a little careful not to wake him. My heart is heavy but I know I am doing the right thing. He may hate me for leaving but none of that matters. I just need to know he is safe. When he begins to stir, I wipe my eyes quickly. He thankfully does not seem to notice. We spend some time in bed just talking. He asks me to spend the day with him and the others they are going down to the lake.
I decide that I would like that as it would give me a chance to see all of them before I go.

I tell him I will meet him in the clearing as I just want to escape from the back. I still do not want anyone other than my family to see me. We leave shortly after breakfast that Legolas brought up. I know he feels I am being rather irrational hiding from everyone but I do believe he understands and would probably do the same.

We spend the day with my brother, cousins and Tauriel. I can't help but notice how Tauriel and Haldir are behaving together. At times they seem to be the only two around. I am really quiet happy to see this, they should both have happiness and hopefully they can find it together. They also understand each other even though my brother is a prince he was never really raised as one. Since leaving Lindon he has been a March warden for Lothlorien and Tauriel being captain of the guard, they understand each other. I talk with my cousins, being that they are like their father in a lot of ways; Elrohir seems to notice that I am behaving differently.

"Lily may I have a word with you for a moment?"

We pull off to the side out of earshot. "Tell me cousin why are you looking at us like you are. You appear to be taking everything in, studying the day like too need to remember are you thinking of leaving?"

When I do not respond he says, "well I have my answer are you sure you want to do this? Legolas will miss you greatly, we all will. Even though we do not see you much, it is good to know where you are and of your safety. If you go remember you can communicate with us anytime you should need help. Always remember we are here for you."

I simply smile at him and give him a big hug. "I will thank you. Please make sure everyone is alright take care of them. I know sometimes you and Ellendan act a little silly but you are great men wise beyond your years. You know that in order to get through this life you cannot always take things to seriously. You also know when to be strong and responsible. I will miss you."

We head back to the group. I have trouble keeping myself together.  We spend most of the afternoon there having the lunch we had brought. I decide I should tell Tauriel I trust her and know she will keep my secret safe even though she will hate it. I ask her to join me in my room. Legolas is busy with preparation for the party tonight.
I tell her my plans and she cries and asks me if can come with me.

"No Tauriel you are needed here plus Legolas will need a friend. Someone to make sure he does not get himself killed. I will always love you my friend and will think go you often." We hug and both have tears in our eyes. I ask her to send my brother, and parents he needs to know as well.

I basically tell Haldir the same thing. My mother knew as my father had told her. She cries but agrees it is for the best. She will head back to Lothlorien with Haldir and her parents as she does not want to burden Thranduil once we are gone. Plus he is a little upset with her because of the way she shut me out. My parents leave and now it is just me and Haldir.

"Lily I wish you were not leaving, but I know you must. I would do the same thing. I wish you all the best and it was great to spend this time with you. Please take care of yourself and our father."

"I will. Tell me before I go are you and Tauriel a couple."

"No I care for her, but I do believe she has feeling for another, she told me tonight that we can only be friends when I talked to her about a date. So it hurt but it must not be meant to be."

"Do not give up so easily my brother things may change one day."

What Tauriel had not told me was that she had seen my brother and Eloise together and she was all over him. She thought he had feeling for her.  Tauriel told my brother she has feeling for another just so she would not risk getting hurt.

"Goodbye my sweet sister, until we meet again. Then I shall choose a Kingdom that you settle in and annoy you for all of time."

I smile and we hug. I do not look in his eyes this time as I do not wish to see him sad for the third time in my life.
They all returned to the party as I gathered my belongings and left through the backdoor unnoticed. My father was downstairs and said his goodbye to Thranduil thanking him for everything. Thranduil wished him safe travels and told him to return at any time. My dad meets me at the clearing at 9. I whistled and the eagles came. I asked my father to give me just a few moments I would catch up to him. I had so many sweet and some scary memories of this spot. I wanted a second to remember the good times. I connected to Legolas in my head. I could feel him listening. I had gotten better at this and it was not easy to block me anymore. I blocked myself from his thoughts. I did not think I could go through with this if I heard them.

"Legolas I am so sorry to do this. I am leaving this place. I will miss all of you terribly but I can no longer risk the safety of those I love especially you. You are my everything and if something should ever happen to you because of me, I have no idea what I would do. Please do not hate me; I have had the best moments of my life with you. I wanted to leave you my necklace but could not part with it. I took your note to remember you by. I also took the picture of the gazebo; I have many dreams of myself in a location looking identical to that and I feel so happy and at peace. Hopefully one day we will be able to build that kind of life together in a place just like that. I did not know you could draw so well. It was amazing to see myself through your eyes. I left you a note on your pillow. I love you forever and always, don't forget it." In the note I left the same thing. I mounted the eagle and took off. Legolas must have been looking for me as I was talking, because when I looked back I seen him on the patio of the palace looking up at me. I could not see his face and I was thankful for that.