Unsent Letters

Unsent Letter #12

I'm so tired of crying

It makes me feel see-through

I'm so tired of trying

Because I still miss you

I've always wanted to be brave

But when I face the storm I can't brave it

There's so much that I want to say

But there's never any time to say it

They'll tell me it's a phase

And they'll tell me it wont last

But when I see your face

I see a future and a past

Something's changed about you

But I don't know what it means

Does it show that you've moved

And that you're better off without me?

I don't think you read these anymore

So I guess I can spill my heart

To my few readers in the world

About how we seem to have grown apart

I've missed you ever since

They placed a million rules infront of me

It seems I never really let go, hence,

The fact that you're now part of everything I think

I know I may not mean much to you

I suppose I understand if you no longer care

Though after all that we've been through

Just know that you've always been in my heart somewhere

I've always loved you in some way or form

Never been able to easily push you away

And since I don't think you read these anymore

Its can say that in your arms was always my favorite place

The wise people call it 'young love'

And they deem in worthless

But it's all I have

With out it I'd be nearly heartless

You mean the world to me

And nothing they can say will change that

If it's not some kind of love, I may as well be nothing

A mind lost in nothing but black

So I suppose what I'm trying to say

Is that I've missed you now more than ever

I've messed up in the past and am still trying to fix it today

But I still care so much about you, and will forever

I've had so many doubts

That it's hard to keep things straight in my head

But if you weren't here, I couldn't live life out

You will always be part of the reason this life isn't dead

Song: Five For Fighting "100 years"