Good on the inside bad on the outside

chapter 13

i sat on the chair in complete shock. i had no idea what i did.

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN WHAT!?" Rick said only getting angrier.

i sucked up all my fear and said "i mean why is everyone yelling and crying and pointing fingers at me like i killed someone?!' i said surprised that im actually able to speak.

"i-its because you did kill someone" Carl says wiping his tears "you killed isabelle cold bloodidly last night" he said stuttering and swollowing hard.

i sat there in complete shock as Carl lied to everyone and as everyone believed every word he said.

i was trying to say something but i couldnt.

finally i snapped.

"YOU FUCKING LIAR" I screamed as i tackled Carl and punched him across the face.

Rick quickly picked me up, threw me in a cell and locked me in there.

"RICK SHE CANT LIVE WITH US! SHE KILLED ISABELLE AND WHEN CARL CONFRONTED HER SHE PUNCHED HIM!" Beth said franticcly

Beth wouldnt stop talking so Maggie escorted her outside.

"no one go near her! for all we know she can be as bad as the governer or maybe even worse." Rick said calming down. i knew the her he was refering to was me.

i didnt kill isabelle i didnt do it. why would Carl point fingers at me?! what did i do to him? and now im probably gonna get kicked out of the group because of his lying ass. i hate him i hate him i hate him!!

an hour passed and all i could hear during this time is everyone in the cafetria discussing what they should do to me as a punishment. i didnt really make out the words because i was in the farthest cell from the cafetria, but i could hear there muffled voices at least.

beth would occasionly scream, and daryl would occasonaly scream 'bullshit'.

another hour passed and they were still disccusing. by what i heard i at least found out that Daryl and Rick couldnt agree on what they should do to me.

finally Rick came to my cell. My heart was beating out of my chest. what if he kills me? what if he kicks me out? i shook the thoughts out of my head as he walked into the cell.

before he could say anything i started crying so hard, harder then i thought i could.

"i-i-i didnt do it!" i cried looking at Rick.

Rick softened up a bit and put his hand on my shoulder.

"Kayla..." he sighed closing his eyes.

"no rick trust me, i didnt do it i swear!" i yelled making sure everyone could hear.

"Kayla i was a sherriff and i know when you like someone anger could get the best of you especiallly when you're in a world were killing isnt a big deal, its obvious you killed her. but not only did you kill her you killed my sons child, hes devistated." Rick said sighing

"i didnt do it!! i dont know why Carl accused me because i didnt! have you ever thought maybe he did it because, he didnt wanna raise a kid! and plus he was complaining to me how he couldnt handle isabble anymore." i stuttered.

Rick took what i said into consideration.

Rick looked at me.

"he was complaining about her?" he said suspicously

i nodded quckly. i was telling the truth, i wasnt lying.

rick nodded and walked out of the cell locking it behind me.

"Carl!!" rick called out for Carl looking around for me.

****CARLS POV****

my hands were shaky and sweaty and my heart was beating at a hundred miles per hour, i killed isabelle and the baby inside of her. then i accused it on Isabelle.

i should have died the night were i jumped in the lake. i should've saved everyone the misery of having me around.

i started to calm down a bit, but then my dad called my name and the panic started to hit me again.

"Carl!!" dad called out.

i swallowed hard and anwsered.

"y-yeah dad, over here in my cell" i said wiping the sweat off my hands and onto my jeans

my dad quickly came in and kneeled down next to me.

"Carl, were you ever mad or annoyed of isabelle to the point were you would hurt her?"

oh shit, he knows. he fucking knows. i couldnt help it i started to breath really fast and i got light headed really fast. next thing i know i passed.

when I wake up i only see beth looking down at me.

"Ri-" beth says but i quickly cover up her mouth with my hand.

"shut the fuck up" i whisper.

beth bites my arm and yells for Rick.

"RICK!' Beth yells for him and walks out.

Rick quickly walks in and doesnt even bother asking how i feel.

"did you kill isabelle and accuse Kayla" he asks quickly.

i opened my mouth to say something but words couldnt come out of my mouth.

dad sighs and puts his hand on his forhead and wipes it down his face.

"Carl tell me the truth." he says starting to get worried.

"i-i" i couldnt talk.

Daryl then quickly walked into the cell.

"CAT GOT YOUR TOUNGE?! HUH KID? ACCUSIN KAYLA FOR YOUR BULLSHIT." he says approching me but dad pushes him out of the cell.

"daryll... im talking to him" dad says and comes back to me.

"look, its pretty obvious you killed her and accused Kayla. i dont care if your my son. i cant kick you out. but, guess what murderers get, jail time. for the rest of there life. so guess what, Carl. you are not alowwed to leave this cell for your whole existence, the cell will always be closed and a blanket will be put over it so no one can see you and you cant see anyone, you disgust me. youre not my son, Carl. i dont know who you are." Rick says and quickly walks out shutting the cell door and locking it.

i begin to cry. cry so hard i could barley breath and it hurt so much.

i fall to the ground crying. im gonna kill myself, i just need the perfect time.