The key to my mind

poem #2 The ghost of memory's past

I thought I escaped you,
A valiant effort to run
But not nearly enough.

I wanted to forget and over time I did,
And I foolishly believed
The memory was gone for good.

But just as you always have done,
You managed to come back..

I ran but got tired and slowed down
Thinking it was ok,
To my surprise it was far from so.

You haunted my dreams,my
Thoughts,
My daily life.

You forced me to mentally
Relive that horrible incident,
That one I attempted to forget so
Quickly.

I try to forget when I realize
now there's no point.

But thinking on it now
I should stop running,
I should give up and just let it
Demonize me once more,
Why fight an itch when it
Will only get worse?

Its time I faced that issue,
Its time I scratched that itch.

Its a problem I can no longer avoid because
If I continue to try,
The memory will eventually
Force itself back into my mind...

And when it does it will change me ultimately,
Turning me into an inescapable monster
Causing me to hurt those I hold dear...