Shades of Blue.

Chapter Eight (Part Two)

Lauren's hands are shaking and she can't understand why.

Or maybe- maybe she can. She has had sex a lot of time since the last time she had sex with Normani. Well, not a really a lot of times, but definitely a considerable amount of times. She's not nervous because she's going to have sex, she's nervous because she's going to have sex with Normani.

It's clear that it'a going to happen. They've been home for about half an hour. Lauren's gotten Normani out of Dinah's jacket because just the thought of Normani smelling like Dinah was driving her to the brink of insanity. They're on the couch, Lauren's head on Normani's lap and Normani's fingers in her hair. They'd been talking, but then Normani's fingers got lazy and her blinks got slower and she can't stop looking at Lauren's lips and...they both just know what's coming.

And Lauren's scared shitless.

What if it's not the same? What if Normani doesn't like it and she never wants to have sex again and their sex life goes to shit and after everything Lauren still loses her.

Normani's eyes flutter closed and she leans down to kiss Lauren. It's a very impulsive spur of the moment decision when Lauren turns her head and the kiss falls on her cheek.

Normani's eyes snap open, wide and confused, she pulls back, "what- what's wrong?" She stutters out.

Lauren sits up. Running her fingers through her hair. She knows what she wants to say but she doesn't know how to say it and it's frustrating the fuck out of her.

"Have you changed your mind about us cause-"

"What? No." Lauren shuffles on the seat so that she's on Normani's lap now. She holds her face in her hands, makes her look her in the eyes. "Baby, I promise you that's not it. I promise." The fright in Normani's eyes fades a little. She brings her arms around Lauren and pulls her closer. She looks like she wants to smile. Lauren chuckles, "what?" She asks, rubbing her thumb up and down Normani's cheek.

Normani shrugs but she's full out smiling now.

"What?" Lauren asks around a laugh.

"Nothing. You just- you called me baby.I love it when you call me that."

"Yeah?" Lauren forgets for a moment just how freaked out she was just minutes ago.

"Mhm." Normani nods and rubs her hands up and down the small of Lauren's back. "Do you want to talk about what just happened?"

Lauren sighs. Might as well be honest, "I'm afraid it's going to suck. The sex, I mean."

"Why on earth would it suck? Have you seen you? Have you seen me? There's no way it'll be anything but amazing. Plus it's not like we've never done it before."

"I know, I know. But it's been a while. Your tastes might have changed."

Normani smiles. She looks so freaking endeared that it makes Lauren blush.

"They haven't."

"Are you sure?" Lauren asks in a teasing voice."

At first, it seems like Normani is going to tease back but then all mirth drains from her eyes and Lauren knows they're done with the teasing. Her hands move from Lauren's waist to her sides. They're warm on Lauren's skin, they feel like memories, familiar and safe.

Lauren leans down and kisses her. Because she wants to and because she can and mostly because she's needed this for so long and now she can finally have it. Brown eyes are closed when Lauren pulls back, her lips are pink and wet from Lauren's kisses and she looks so relaxed and so devastatingly beautiful.

Lauren loves her. There're so many things running through her brain right now and it's sort of overwhelming but she knows with all her heart that she loves this girl, "I love you so much."

Brown eyes flutter open and right before Lauren can freak out, Normani's lips stretch into a slow smile. Everything about her is soft in this moment. Her smile, her eyes, her hands on Lauren's skin, "I love you too." Even her voice is soft.

Lauren kisses her again, deeper this time. She tries breathing her words into the kiss because just saying it doesn't seem like it's enough. 'I love you. I love you. I love you.' She makes sure her hands are gentle on Normani's face. She deepens the kiss even further until she hears Normani gasp and her breath hitches and she pushes her body even further into Lauren's.

Lauren smiles into the kiss, she can't resist feeling a little smug. Normani smiles too and Lauren covers her smile with kisses, she tastes like happiness and everything Lauren's ever wanted. She moves from Normani's lips down her neck, kissing her way to her chest and right to the soft skin between her breasts. Normani's hold on her becomes tighter, she's always so sensitive here. Lauren litters her skin with kisses, tens and tens of them, "you smell so good." She whispers.

Normani giggles, "thanks."

"I love your boobs."

"I love you."

"I love your heart." Lauren kisses right above her rib cage, "I love that it's mine."

Normani doesn't say anything to that. Lauren pauses her kisses a little to look at her, and she's met with a look of so much adoration that it sends shivers up her spine. Normani's looking at her like she's the most precious thing to ever walk this earth and Lauren's not very sure she deserves it, but she's certain she's going to do anything she can to keep it. 

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Sorry to the people who read the incomplete version of this before, it published by mistake. Anyway, here's part two and probably the last chill chapter for a while, so enjoy it. Thank you for 5k reads!!!