Little White Lies (on-going)

Chapter 10

"So he's the one you've been hooking up with huh." napatingin ako sa likuran ko.

I saw Tyronn with his hands in his pockets. He looked like the guy on The Mortal Instruments.(Jace ba yun?)

He was looking at me intently.

What the heck is his problem?

Ayoko siyang makausap.

As much as possible, I don't want us to bump on each other, I don't wanna see him but I guess that's just impossible.

Tatalikuran ko na sana siya pero hinawakan niya ang kaliwang braso ko.

"So, you live here?" He asked in a cold tone. It made me shiver. Natatakot ako sakanya. Boses niya palang.

He's not himself anymore. He changed a lot, he's not the Tyronn, I knew before. He even changed his name for Pete's sake!

"Will you please stop talking to me? Ayaw kitang makausap." I raised an eyebrow.

"So ikaw pa ngayon may ganang magalit? Did you forget all the fucking things you've done to me huh?" hinawakan niya ang dalawang balikat.

Nasasaktan ako.

Natatakot ako. Natatakot ako sa kanya.. Hindi naman siya ganito eh. Hindi niya ako sinisigawan noon. Ibang iba na siya.

At alam kong dahil sakin,

kaya siya nagkaganito.

I'm sorry, Tyronn.

"Stop it, Tyronn." I said calmly. Ayoko na. Ayoko ng alalahanin lahat. I moved on. Bakit ba niya pilit binabalik ang mga bagay na tapos na?

"You're telling me to stop? What if I don't?!" Hinawakan niya ang pulso ko ng sobrang higpit.

Gusto ko ng maiyak dahil sinisigawan niya ako, nasasaktan din ako.

I bit my lower lip to control myself, ayoko nang umiyak, lalo na sa harap niya.

"You left me without an explanation! Without YOU leaving a word! Do you know how it fucking feels to be fucking left by someone you fucking love? I was left all alone! And now you're telling me to stop?!" Hindi ko na napigilan at naiyak na ako.

Hindi ko kayang makita siya ng ganyan, na nagkakaganyan dahil sakin. I know, it was my fault kaya siya nagkakaganyan.

"You really think I would get over it huh? Nagsisimula pa lang ako.. Pagbabayaran mo ang lahat.." And with that, he left. I sobbed like there was no tomorrow. I'm so sorry, Tyronn..

Bumalik ako papunta sa condo ko at nag kulong sa kwarto. Lahat ng alaala, bumabalik. Lahat lahat.

I saw it in his eyes, the pain and agony, the hatred. This is all my goddamn fault! But they left me no choice..

God knows how much I want to be with him. How much I wanted to fight for him and how much I really loved him!

Pero hindi sapat ang pagmamahal. His parents were against us. Ano ba namang laban ko sa magulang nila diba? They were filthy rich while we were, well, poor.

It was my choice to let go of him cause I thought it'll be best for us..

Hindi niya alam kung ilang araw, buwan, taon akong gabi-gabing umiiyak! Kaya wala siyang karapatang sabihin sakin na madali lang ito para sakin. Because it's not. It was never easy, forgetting him..

10 na ng magising ako. Hindi kasi ako nakatulog kagabi ng maayos dahil sa sobrang dami kong iniisip.

But still, I have an appointment today, about the upcoming movie. Sasabihin na kasi kung kailan magsisimula ang taping and stuffs.