Love Letters |tracob|

13 pt. 1

this was really long so i cut it into 2 chapters, so enjoy this took me a while to write 💖

troye

i'm dressed in a really cute outfit, nothing too fancy but it is quite chilly, so i wore my black skinny jeans and brought my jean jacket.

when connor get to my house at around 8, jacobs already there with him.

i sit in the back with jacob just because I wouldn't want him to sit alone and feel left out. I've never hung out with jacob before though so i hope it's not awkward.

jacob asks connor for the aux chord to break the silence. I wasnt quite sure what kind of music he's playing but i kinda liked it.

"jacob, what kind of music is this?" i ask trying not to sound rude.

"it's just like Motown and stuff" he says. I nod my head, trying not to make this car ride awkward.

I start to play with the bottom of my shirt out of habit and nervousness.

" i like it " I said with a smile

"you know The Supremes?" i asked.

"yeah" he said

"well there's one song that they sing called 'Turn Me Around' and -

"oh yeah i know that song"

"really?! its one of my favorites .... and it's so calming and nostalgic, i don't know why but it just is. Its gonna be my wedding song one day" I say almost like a whisper.

"invite me to your wedding" he said.

at this statement i looked up at him and let out a little giggle. Suddenly i'm not as nervous as I was before. Next thing i know, Livewire by Oh Wonder comes on. One of my favorite songs.

"of course jacob, anything for you" I say sarcastically

he huffed out a laugh through is nose

His face is lit up by the streetlights coming in through my window as connor's driving. His eyes sparkle a little. We stop at a traffic light and he turns his attention to the front of the car to ask connor a question.

I just sit there and admire his face, the red light reflecting on his face, and when it turns green? just as beautiful, reflecting into his eyes. why are straight boys always the most gorgeous?

After we turn that corner we arrive at the movie theater.

It's not too small but just right.

We walk in the dimly lit parking lot together.

When we get on line to the buy of tickets, there were a couple of people in front of us so we had some time to pick a movie. There was a sign above the ticket booth that had all the movies and times.

"soo what should we see?" i ask

"oh my god remember that old movie called "It" about the scary clown?" connor asked.

"uhh yeah"

"well they have a new remake of it! i didnt know it was out already! we should go see it! i heard it was like 10 times scarier than the original!"

i looked up at jacob to see what he thought of it. i hated scary movies but i dont want to tell them that and look like coward.

"wait where do you see the full list of movies?" jacob asked

connor pointed behind him. Only 2 people left to buy their tickets in front of us so we've got to hurry up.

"lets see..they have 'Kong: Skull Island', 'La La Land', 'Going in Style', and 'It' playing soon" jacob said.

'It' can't be that scary, troye. you'll be fine.

"Whatever you guys want" i said.

"I guess we'll see 'It' then" jacob said.

i'm really nervous

after we each separately paid for our tickets, we bought popcorn and soda. I would kind of stall before going into the movie by saying things like 'i dont know what kind of candy i want' or 'which size popcorn should i get'. Eventually we just bought one extra large bucket of popcorn for all of us to share, to save me the hassle of picking.

We walked to one side of the movie theater to where our movie was being shown, right across from La La Land. I'd rather see that.

When we walked in, the previews were still being shown and i think everyone on the line in front of us for when we bought the tickets were all here to see 'It' too.

We chose seats in the middle of the theater, dead center screen. Connor and I made Jacob sit in the middle to hold the popcorn for us.

I started to panic slightly when the lights started to dim, and it got really, really, dark. The creepy music added to the effect. I never saw the original 'It' because i was too scared to watch it, yet I did see the new trailer for this one and oh my god its scary.

I always got scared of horror film previews before movies started, so i don't know how well I'll hold up with this.

'tough it up troye," i say to myself "don't look like a coward in front of jacob".

the first scene that i actually thought was scary was the scene when Georgie loses his paper boat in the sewage drain and then that thing called "pennywise" or whatever takes his paper boat.

I just closed my eyes and covered my face with my hands. I didnt want to look, i didnt want to look. i gasped when it took him under.

You could probably guess what happened to me throughout the whole movie. I basically did that. sometimes i would be surprised and grab Jacob's arm.
By the end of the movie i started to feel self conscious because jacob kept looking at me, so i stopped closing my eyes and toughed it out. The end was frickin scary as fuck and i just couldnt help but be scared. It was too scary. I knew i was gonna have nightmares after this. The frickin clown trying to get the boy and it emerging out of whatever was on the floor.

Suddenly, the clown jumped out of no where and I just couldnt help but scream. I quickly dug my face into jacobs arm, trying to hid. I started to cry, i was having a panic attack. i cant believe im so pathetic, crying at the movies in front of jacob.

i kept saying "jacob get me out of here i dont want to be here its too scary jacob"