Love Letters |tracob|

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troye

i dont really know what to do about this secret admirer, (which i now know is connor) because he keeps sending me notes in my locker and i know he's trying so hard. heck, he bought me roses, wrote me poems, and to be honest it's everything i'm looking for. 

so am i choosing the right guy?

the more i think about it the more i can't decide.

is connor my type?  yes but ... to be honest, i thought he was a bottom....

but jacob, on the other hand, is so nice and caring and sweet and i'm literally going through all this trouble for him... and i guess in a way he is for me too? but he's like straight? 

but jacob makes me laugh

but connor so helpful and he understands me

but jacob's hot af... and I've always thought of connor as nothing more than a friend

frickin can't choose anything to save my life, just like i can't decide what to wear to the homecoming dance.

i need time to think, a lot of time to think this over

i just hope i end up choosing the right person

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it's finally here, dreaded homecoming week.

homecoming is basically welcoming former students back to school in a 'celebration type' of way. my old school in australia never had this; probably because these american schools base it around a game of american football, and then a dance after. the whole week basically builds up to the day of homecoming (friday). until then, of course, there's homecoming king and queens that need to be voted for, peps to be rallied, dresses to buy, and posters to put up.

seems very stressful, but i think i'll end up liking it.  

since this is such a big extravagant week, jacob's been hanging with his football friends more after school (because you know, extra practice), and just like being the classic high school football jock. 

he told me it was just a "team bonding week" because they have to work together and get to know each other better so they play better and blah blah blah

i'm just worried that he'll forget about me and connor... mainly me

none the less, i'll still be going to the homecoming game with connor to watch him play

i only see jacob in chemestry and i'm thankful that we have group chemistry projects (and it's for in class only). this way i dont have to stress about work at home, and i get more time to talk to jacob

"so since i'm assuming we are all going to the homecoming dance together, we should all like try to match and stuff, and go togeth-"

"troye, no you don't get it jacob doesn't do 'school dances'.... never has" connor said

"true" jacob says

"what? why?" how ridiculous

jacob looks down at his paper, almost disappointed, or nervous 

 "well you see..." connor said, sounding a bit angry "this jock over here can never go to homecoming dances because him and his football buddies always go to parties and get wasted after their big 'homecoming football game'" 

that was unexpected

the tension between the two was rising and i could tell connor was ticked off.

'hey thats not the only reason why! i also dont go because i don't know how to dance"

"OH YEAAAAH RIGHT JACOB BIXENMAN," connor said as he rolled his eyes and crossed his arms "how dare you say that you dont know how to dance! i've seen you; you got moves"

jacob just rolled his eyes 

i just sat there with disappointment in my eyes and jacob could tell

my first (and last) high school homecoming experience and i dont even get to dance with my crush at the dance

jacob

i looked at troye and he looked so upset, almost like he was about to cry

he sat there looking at his fingers, obviously sad i wasnt going 

on the other hand, connor just looked angry at me (which happens every homecoming)

i mean, like i can't just not go to the party... but i dont want to disapoint troye 

and ughh just the chance to slow dance with him

you know what, there will be plenty of football parties. so i took out a deep breath and let out a sigh,

"fine, i'll go"

troye looked up and smiled and connor looked so surprised 

"really?" troye said as connor and troye stared at each other

"yeah, really" 

troye smiled so wide and then connor proceeded to squeal

"we have to pick out outfits, and and go shopping, and-" 

"woah woah hold on there i need a day and a time because i've got football stuff all week"

"oh yeah.. are you guys free tomorrow? cuz i'm sure everyone's gonna be renting a suit and buying dresses, you know? we need to do stuff as soon as possible"

"yeah.. so what time do you think... 6? 5:30? i think i can do 5:30...."

"yeah perfect"