Love Letters |tracob|

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troye

it's thursday, the day before prom, but it's also another anxious school day. yesterday i saw jacob at the mall with the girl... i hope things arent awkward, i still dont even know the whole story; i assume my assumptions are correct though.

i haven't been to my locker since tuesday... jeez i should have gone there yesterday but i forgot and didn't even get to do my chemistry homework, so i'm going there this morning.

as i'm walking, i run into jacob.

"hey tro..."

"hi" i say shyly

we walking in the empty quiet hallway that led to the stairs.

"look, i'm sorry about yesterday or whatever i did to make you upset... i feel really bad you know?"

"no jacob, i dont know! i dont get why you looked so mad when i was talking to jack! it's not like i'm 'your boyfriend' or something, no! because i'm nothing even close to that! yet i cant even talk to other guys without you getting mad and it just makes no sense and-"

jacob grabbed my shoulders and pulled my into a hug as my voice started to get shaky, but i was still mad.

"tro, tro, shh shh, troye please let me explain" he said in a calm voice.

but i wasnt calm

"i've heard enough excuses" i said wiping my nose with my arm and turned around and walked away from him

i closed my eyes trying to calm my anger. jacob was talking about something but i just couldn't hear his excuses because i was just so frustrated, i just walked up the stairs. i needed to clear my head.

i walked to my locker and saw a brown paper bag duct taped to the door. i wasnt in the mood. i knew there was a letter in there, but i didn't want to look at it. right now, i didn't want roses or a letter or anything love related. right now i hated it. i hated love. i hated that girl.

i ripped the bag off my locker and started sobbing... then the bell rang. i ran into the bathroom and locked the door. it felt like my heart was breaking and i don't even know why.

i needed to re-think everything.

should i ignore jacob?

should i completely cut him off? because honestly i'm done with him

but am i?

should i even try to talk it out with him?

suddenly there's a knock on the bathroom door. i dry my tears and get up to unlock it

"sorry" i say looking down, not wanting whoever it is to look at my red eyes and tear stained face

suddenly i'm embraced with a hug

"tro i'm sorry"

i just cry harder in his chest

"i didn't mean to make you upset, its just, i care about you... you have to know that i care about you, more than i even care about myself"

"who was she jacob?" i said muffled in his chest, still crying

"to be honest, i dont know. she works at the flower shop in town and she gave me her number but i didnt know what to do with it, but i barely know her... i really don't like her... not in the way i like you"

"im sorry. i'm sorry for talking to that guy"

"shh shh there's nothing to be sorry for, just please forgive me" he says, then kisses my head.

"i do"

he pulls away from our warm hug, his shirt has damp circles from where i was crying into his chest, making some spots seem darker than the actual color of his shirt. i wipe my eyes a little more.

from behind my back jacob pulls out a rose that he's been holding, but i just never realized it.

i looked at it and giggled at how cheesy this is.

"now that you forgive me," he says with a smile and his glossy hazel eyes looking straight into mine,

"well you go to the homecoming dance with me?"

"we were already going together!" i say with a giggle

"i know... but i want you go as my date instead of my friend"

this can't be happening.

"yes" i say then stand on my tippy toes and kiss his cheek which makes his eyes practically pop out of his head.